Pulse

Loss

Aphmau's POV

"I'm grabbing you more popcorn!" My mom yells across the house while I'm watching TV in the living room at ten o'clock, she insisted she came over after I broke up with Aaron.
I already miss him, no matter how hard my mom and myself told me he was cheating trash, I can't help but love him still. Thinking about him brings tears to my eyes. He's gone, he's really gone... The tears come faster, until I'm crying.
"I got the popc-" She trails off when she comes in to see me crying, and sets the big bowl of popcorn she holds on the small table. I put my hand over my eyes as if to hide them, even though I already know I can't. She already saw.
"Oh, hey." She sits down next to me and grabs my hand and squeezes it. "It's going to be okay, we'll get through it, you're strong, you can get through this."
"I miss him mom, I can't help but still love him." She pulls me into a hug and we just sit there for at least ten minutes until I think I fall asleep.
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I wake up under a blanket on the couch, and the sun shines through the open blinds into my eyes. I squint and prop myself up with my elbow, and the sleep out of my eyes.
I get up to make Aaron's breakfast. He'll want pancakes. I walk into the kitchen and it crashes down. Aaron's gone, and he's not coming back. Tears spring into my eyes and I lean against the empty wall, it's too empty.
Too empty without him. He always leaned here when we were talking. It will never be filled again. The wall is like a hole, an endless void. I finally pry myself from the wall and walk tothe counter to pour myself a bowl of cereal and get some coffee.There's no point in cooking for one.
I pour the coffee and make a decision. I will move on. And I know the first thing I have to do is get a job.