Pulse

I love you

We stay there, tears and regret in our eyes, Alone. I can't help but feel at home again. Why does she make me feel this way? But why does she all of a sudden care? Theses questions have been rotting at my brain for weeks now.
It's been quiet for awhile now, I wanna break it. But I don't know what to say exactly. "Why do you care?"
She looks at me, her eyes red and puffy from crying, "huh?"
"Why do you care?" I repeat.
"Well just because we aren't together anymore doesn't mean we can't be friends. I care because your my best friend Aaron.." She then mumbles something I can't make out.
I look at her confused, "What did you say?"
" I said, '' I love you," after she made that statement she ran out the door I think she may have been crying more but I'm not a hundred percent sure
"I love you too," I whisper. I go back to my painting I was staring at earlier. My eyes still filled with tears, I try and wipe them away with my good arm. I feel better mentally and emotionally after seeing her and knowing she is okay, but I'm still hurting physically.
A knock at the door pulls me out of my thoughts again. "It's open."
When they open the door it revealed that it was Aphmau again. She walks over and hugged me. This my friend is what home feels like.
"I love you and I can't help not." She cries into my right shoulder.
I rub her head gently, messing up her hair a little, "I love you too," I want to kiss her but I don't, she doesn't need me anymore. She looks up at me with a surprised look, I look back at her. Her eyes are like stars, I can't stop looking at. I missed her so much.
We lean closer to each other. Slowly our lips connect and we kiss. After what seemed like seconds but was actually minutes she pulls away. "I'm sorry I got carried away and I..." She stops me midway.
"Aaron I'm so, so sorry. Maybe if I was smarter I would have noticed the picture was photoshopped and knew you would never do something like that. But let's forget that for the moment I just want to spend time together."
I smile for the first time in almost two months. I moved over to my left to make room for her so she can sit next to me. She goes into the little space I made and she cuddles into my chest. I look down at her, her eyes I hadn't noticed before, had giant dark circles under like she hadn't slept for weeks. Her precious eyes were closed now, she must have been tired but yet again I haven't had a good night's sleep in two months. Maybe things will work out for us maybe we just need time. As I think my eyes feel heavy and then they close.