THE START OF CHRISTMAS BREAK
DECEMBER 18TH
8:04PM
I haven't been feeling like myself lately and I have no clue what it is. Tj wanna play the game all day and act like he don't hear me which is starting to piss me off at this point. Getting up I unplugged the Tv.
"Why you did that" He threw the headset off.
"I keep telling you somethings wrong but you just won't listen" I started to cry as I looked up at him.
"Come on, why you crying mama?" he pulled me to his chest as he wrapped his embrace around me.
"What you want?" He asked sitting me on his lap as I wrapped my arms around his neck.
"Your attention" I replied resting my head in the crease of his neck.
"You are such a baby" he laughed. I began to laugh and at that very moment I felt the urge to throw up. Running to the bathroom everything I ate earlier just came out of my body through my mouth.
"You good?" he asked as he held my hair back and rubbed my back at the same time. Nodding in response I wiped my mouth and brushed my teeth. I don't wanna go to the doctor at all. Going back into the room to see Tj laying down playing the game I went over and opened his arms so I can lay on top of him. I rested my head in the crease of his neck with both my legs on each side of his.
I didn't even go to sleep I just stayed up under him because I just couldn't. After a while I got out of the bed and slid my slides on.
"Where you going?" He asked as I opened the door.
"I'm just going to the pool" I replied walking out. I reached the pool and sat on the edge with my feet in it. It was about 62 degrees out with a little breeze and It felt good.
A few thoughts ran across my mind. What if I am pregnant? I'm not ready at all and of course I wouldn't abort it that'll be morally and wrong. My dad would be mad at the possibility of me being pregnant, but if I am he'd have to deal with it. The thought of having children with him came across my mind a few times. Now isn't the time though.
A couple minutes later Tj comes outside and takes a seat beside me. Looking at him for a while I turned my attention back to my feet in the blue water that lit up from lights on the walls of the pool.
"What's on your mind?" He asked.
"Nothing why'd you asked?" I looked at him.
"You only come out here when something's wrong" he replied which is true, Very true.
"I'm fine, I just came out here for some fresh air" I lied as I shook my head.
"Come inside" he got up and took my hand. Going back inside he led me back to the room.
"The beds right there" I whined pointing to it.
"I know" he laughed as he led me to the bathroom.
Opening the bathroom door it revealed a bathtub full of bubbles with rose petals and candles everywhere. It was so gorgeous and he did it in no time. The little things matter the most to me.
"This for me?" I asked looking around.
"Yeah, I figured you needed it" he replied. I gave him the biggest hug ever because knows me inside and out. He knows my emotions and the way im feeling. He couldn't have done this at a better time. Stripping out of my clothes off I slipped in. Tj sat on the edge of the tub. I just need to relax an reanalyze all my thoughts. Maybe I'm mistaken and overthinking.
"I know you think your pregnant" he chuckled as he massaged my foot.
"No I don't" I nervously chuckled as I scooped up the bubbles and smoothed them back out.
"Yes you do, which is why I got these for you" he pulled out some pregnancy tests. Taking them from him I looked at the box. I've never taken a pregnancy test in between loosing my virginity and now.
"When did you get these?" I asked looking at the box.
"Earlier" he laughed.
"Are you trying to get me pregnant?" I laughed.
"No I wouldn't intentionally do that cause I kinda didn't plan on children at this moment as well as you, but if you are we're gonna take care of it. No matter the consequences" he shrugged his shoulders as I nodded in agreement.
"Okay" I sat them down on the edge of the tub and getting finished I got dressed and I took the test so now we were just waiting. About 10 minutes later the timer went off. I know 10 minutes is a bit much when it only requires 4 but im just scared because unprotected sex makes you feel this way. Picking them up I hesitantly looked at them and they only showed 1 line.
I'm not pregnant, thank you Jesus. Don't get me wrong baby's are a blessing. It's just that right now isn't the time. I called Tj in to look at them. He was kinda disappointed, but hey it will happen one day.
"It's okay there's always another time" I said and since Im not pregnant I try not to hug or kiss him because whatever I have right now he could possibly get it. He probably already has it.
"You should probably go home, I don't want you to catch whatever it is I have" I said as I threw the pregnancy tests away and walked into the room.
"No, I wanna stay here. Do you need some medicine or anything?" He asked as he put on his shoes.
"Can you get me some antibiotics and some Chinese food?" I replied throwing myself into bed.
"Yeah" He said and with them he walked out. Yes I want to have children with him. No doubt about it.
30 MINUTES LATER
"Thank you so much" I smiled as Tj came through the door with food.
"You eat then take your antibiotics, and I made a extra stop at Starbucks to get you a s'mores Frappuccino" he walked over to the bed.
"Thank youuu" I sat up and grabbed the food before grabbing the remote. Sitting beside me we ate our food as we watched the rest of the movie we began watching a little bit earlier. Falling asleep while eating I could feel Tj take my plate and leave out. Minutes later he came back and got in the bed before pulling me closer as I laid on his chest.
MORNING
"I don't feel good" I whined as I put the pillow over my face. I was nauseous and my stomach cramped considering my menstrual cycle was now here. It's just not a good feeling at all.
"I know Aniyah I know" he walked over to the bed with my food. I know he's tired of me i've been complaining all night long.
"I'm sorry, you can go home if you want" I put the cover over my head.
"No it's fine, I'll stay here" he replied.
"Eat your food and take your antibiotics" he said standing above me. Taking the cover from my face I sat up and opened the plate. He knows what to get every time without being told.
"You wanna go to the doctor or?" He asked.
"I'm pretty sure it's just the stomach virus. It's self treatable" I shrugged as he sat beside me.
"Love you" I said resting my head on his shoulder.
"Love you too" he replied kissing my forehead. I ate the rest of my food and laid down.
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