(I'm back, sorry for my super long absence.)
My dearest y/n,
I feel as if I must begin the letter with pleasantries, knowing that isn't what either one of us wants. It may make me less of a gentleman if I don't ask you how you are. So, how are you? How is school? Has Billy been bothering you lately? Do you miss me staring at you in class? Or our walks to school or our late night talks?
It is so important that you know how much I miss you. I need you to know how hard it was to leave Avonlea, to leave you. It will forever remain one of my deepest regrets and I feel I must apologize to you. Considering I left with almost no warning to you or anyone, I feel like a terrible person.
Please forgive me, that's all I want. I want nothing more than to come home and pick you up in my arms and give you all my love. You have no idea how much I miss you. I miss the way your hair used to fall gently on your shoulders when you took your hat off. I miss the glances we would exchange whenever Ruby would try to flirt with me. I miss the way you used to walk closer to me and hold my hand whenever Billy made you uncomfortable. If you only remember one thing from this letter, let it be this. Leaving you was the hardest thing I've ever had to do, and I love you more than anything or anyone.
With all of my love,
Gilbert
My dearest Gilbert,
I have decided to skip the pleasantries, as you call them. I must be honest, Gilbert, I am not angry with you. At first, I thought that the feelings I was feeling, were angry ones. After about 1 month of Ruby sobbing uncontrollably, I knew what the feelings were. They were ones of heartbreak. I only realized this after walking with Diana to her house after school. She pointed out to me that I was portraying signs of someone who had been heartbroken.
If your letter does require my honesty, I do miss you. I miss you more than anyone or anything. School has been difficult without you, I am so tired of everyone asking me "Have you heard from him?", "Is he alive?", or "Did he tell you he was going to leave?". That seems like one of the hardest parts of all of this. Billy and his friends just won't leave me alone.
Billy keeps trying to get me to be his girlfriend, but I always laugh and walk away. One day, Billy said "What if your little Gil never comes back?", that hit me hard. I convinced him that you would and that your arrival back to Avonlea would be soon. I have seemed to convince everyone that you will be returning soon, even Ruby. The hardest person to convince has been me. When are you coming home Gilbert? I love and miss you too much to have you be away from me for this long.
Love,
y/n
