Moon Star (Moonbyul x Xiumin)

Chapter 44

Xiu Min's P.O.V.

"Hey, eat up, we have to go for rehearsal at 2PM." The nudge on my arm instantly snapped me out of my daydream. I looked up from my seat just to see Chen sitting down in front of me, placing a bowl of hot tteokbokki he bought from across the street.

SME's cafeteria was starting to be filled by staffs that were hungry for lunch after getting their hectic schedule done. The atmosphere was common for everyone that worked under SME, knowing that the agency has a very tight work environment and no lazy people are allowed.

I stared at the tteokbokki, and then back at Chen.

"Won't the cafeteria staff kick you out for buying outside food?" I played with my brows, but reached for the wooden stick in the bowl anyway.

"Relax hyung, they won't notice. Besides, they adore me." The guy shot me a wide smile that prettily decorated his lips, nodding excitedly.

"Right." I threw him a faint smile, chuckling slowly before shoving a slice of the rice cake into my mouth. I began chewing slowly, but it instantly made me think of the times I ate with Moon Byul.

Once again, my smile disappeared as I felt my heart banging loud inside my chest.

Her deep intense eyes show up in my mind, staring at me.

Then she scrunched her nose, her eyes narrowing as she laughed. Her face muscles tightened as she did, but she looked breathtakingly beautiful when her mouth opened to form a smile.

It's almost as if I could imagine having her by my side; not as a guardian, but as the love of my life.

Xiu Min-ah, stop it.

You're just torturing yourself. It has been days, and still no sign of her in your sight. She's not coming back for you, Xiu Min. Just forget her.

Oh, but how could you ever willingly forget the girl who stole your heart?

I sighed again, not really understanding my own heart and mind. Everything is still so confusing to me and no one here can answer me. I miss Moon Byul so much, it's making me lose myself as days have gone by.

What makes it even harder for me is when I ask myself heartbreaking questions.

What if Moon Byul never comes back?

What if I never get to see her again?

What if she... dead? And I'm here blaming her for disappearing?

What if she's fine without me, but I'm suffering here because I like her too much?

What if this feeling burning inside my chest, only exists within me and not her?

I've asked myself these questions again and again, countless times. She's the first thing I remember in the morning when I wake up and the last thing to fill my mind when I go to sleep.

I wonder, just how is she?

Can't she just come and answer me for good?

"Hyung?"

For the second time, Chen's voice managed to make me realised that I wasn't alone. I met his concerned gaze upon me.

"Yeah?" I wearily lowered my head.

"You've been acting so strange since you came back. What's wrong?" He asked slowly, sounding like he has been eyeing me for quite some time.

His questions made me sigh faintly as I shook my head. "It's nothing, Chen. What time is it?"