The Survival

Chapter 23

You know when you make a decision and you later regret it? And you realize it after a few days, maybe months? That's me right now.

One night was all it took me to see I'm bloody stupid. I actually am.

I didn't kiss Nathan. What has gone into my head? He is the epitome of perfection. Good eyes, pink lips, penis's nose, defined abs, huge biceps, curly hair and let's not forget, he is as sweet as an apple pie.

So, imagine my reaction when I wake up with the winter's sun shining on my face, and when I open my eyes the first thing, I see is this hot boy sleeping with me against him. And then what I did, or better didn't, hit me like a monstrous truck.

I, Kate Idiot Blair, denied kissing, Nathan Sexy Turner.

I may die now, because seriously if my life is going to get more embarrassing or worse, let it stop here.

I bet that snails are smarter than me.

"Stupid snails..." I mutter.

"Are you doing black magic?"

"I'm what?" I stop fidgeting with my nails and look at Beth.

"You have been 'praying' and whispering since we left the camp spot, so I guessed you were cursing the snails."

"I don't practice black magic, and I wasn't cursing the snails, I was praising them, I was saying that they are more intelligent than me."

Beth gives me a 'what the fuck' look, before moving on, "You seem disturbed today."

"You have no idea." Nathan was walking by my side, till Beth came, he didn't want to feel like he was getting into our way, so he left us to talk. He gave us space, sure, but with space he must mean three steps of difference between me and him, because that's how far we are from one another now.

"What did you do this time?" Beth asks.

"This time? Like most off the things that happen are because of me."

"And this one is?"

"Yeah..." I lower my head in defeat, the chilly air during the night must be bad for my brain cells. Kicking a small rock, I try to calm my racing heart. I could have kissed him, and instead I said that I needed time.

I can feel heat rushing to my cheeks, oh man, I'm a deception to the humanity, I shouldn't be called a woman, I can't kiss a guy that wants to kiss me, and let's not talk about my lack of flirting and dancing skills.

"Care to tell me."

"I'm just the most moron person on Earth." I cover my face with both my hands and pout.

"Let me guess, does it have something to do with Nathan?" I don't say a word, but I peek from my fingers and raise my eyebrow, "I'm going to take that as a yes."

"It wasn't my fault Beth, I mean it was, but I wasn't in the right state of mind... I think."

"Kate, calm down, breathe and talk to me. Take your hands off of your face." Being the sweet and docile human that Beth is, I must say that she was quite violent when she took my hands off of my face, she almost ripped my hands.

"Speak." She orders.

"Short version of the story?"

"Yap." She pops the 'p'.

"Last night Nathan asked me to kiss him."

"Oh, my fucking God, are you serious?" I put my hand over her mouth to hush her, it probably wasn't a good idea, since she licked my hand right after.