J- *sneaking downstairs*
Z- *watching her try to be quiet*
J- he he *goes downstairs*
Z- *wraps up in the blanket and follows her quietly*
J- *in the kitchen*
Z- (what is that crazy bitch doing?)
J- *grabs the sprite*
Z- (just for sprite?)
J- *grabs some cranberry juice and vodka*
Z- (ahh yes there's the catch)
J- "ah ha ha" .... *frowns while pouring herself a drink*
Z- ...
J- *chugs it then sets the glass on the counter and starts pouring a new one*
Z- ... *goes behind her and hugs her, holding her waist*
J- ... *drinks it*
Z- are you done?
J- *pours another and drinks it slower than before*
Z- *waits*
J- one or three more. I don't know which number to pick...
Z- one please *adjusts the blanket so it's around both of them*
J- ... okay *pours one and adds a straw so she can drink this one slower*
Z- wanna go sit in bed?
J- *nods her head*
Z- *picks her up and goes to their room*
J- *sits on the bed*
Z- *gets on the bed and rests his head on her stomach while hugging her*
J- *sips on her drink*
Z- what's wrong Love?
(OKAY IF YOU CANT TELL THE NAME LOVE MAKES ME GO JEJFIDKDOCKSKSJGKSKEJFKXKANDKCK ALSO BABE IS LOWKEY CUTE SO IT BABY SO DONT BE LIKE TF)
J- I'm just stressed.
Z- over?
J- work and I don't know... I've just been thinking...
Z- *getting scared*
J- *runs her hand through his hair* don't worry
Z- I-
J- I felt your heartbeat rise.
Z- *scoffs slightly*
J- I have been getting bad dreams. Which isn't cool because sleep puts a complete stop on thoughts and shit but now it isn't. And you've been practicing since season is starting in... hell two days. And Karla has been focusing on her dancing a lot. And William is working a lot with business and shit and he piled on more classes, so I just sit here alone. Begging for more hours from my boss just so I can do something but he has declined. And fucking being alone almost all day is scary because my thoughts get to me and I can't breathe and my chest hurts all the time. And I hate going to bed without you here until 2 am. Practice has you beat and I want you to be alright. Karla looks stressed as hell and she's constantly practicing and she gets frustrated when she can't get the right move so she gets irritated and then freaks out on everyone and I can see it's stressing William out because he doesn't want to freak her out more. And William isn't just stressed about that he's always staying up and doing homework. So when everyone is home it's quiet. And it feels even more dead than being alone in the house. And it makes me feel like I'm not doing enough with my life. I'm fucking exploring space which doesn't need tons of classes but karla is dancing and William is in business and you're being active in baseball and I just sit here with a shitty future
Z- *hugs her tighter*
J- I don't know. It feels like my life is useless and everyone can live on without me. Like I'm doing nothing with my life. Why would people want to hire another person who dreams of the stars? Why would you want to date me when there's someone better? Why would someone look at me like a sister when anyone else is nicer? Why does karla want to be my best friend if I just ultimately suck ass?
Z- *lays her down*
J- ... *places her drink down*
Z- *hovers over her* jessie... Baka... Love... *makes eye contact with her*
J- ...
Z- the people in my life were shitty. The only good person was William. I had Jane and Tiffany and other people that I would've ended up with if you were never here. I would've wallowed here alone and sad while searching for you. But it's hard looking for something you've never seen before. So thank you so much for being here. Now along with Karla you and her are the bestest friends ever. If you were so shitty, she would've left no problem. You know she would leave you if you were as shitty as you think you are. But you're really not. You help her in sad times and you laugh with her in happy times. You guys are great for each other. Perfect. Now with William I know he didn't care for Tiffany or Jane like he does with you. He never gave a shit about them. I mean of course he cared but it was always the same shit "William my boyfriend broke up with me. William Jane is being a bitch. William I almost got into a fight. William my friends hate each other what do I do. William William William." They never gave a shit about him. And then you came along and you barley opened up but slowly you did. And you guys got comfortable with each other and now you guys talk a lot. And he will take care of you more than anything. He even yelled at me when I started dating you. Saying that "if you break her heart, I'll break your skull". He cares so much for you and you care so much for him. He doesn't have any sisters so here you are to fill that void and more. I can promise you *interlocks hands* we all love you as much as you love us.
J- *lets a few tears fall*
Z- *kisses the tears* don't cry love. *flips over and grabs her so she can cling onto him*
J- *holding him tightly*
Z- it'll be alright. I promise you. You're doing really well in your life *kisses her head* sure you're not touching base 1, and you're not hitting the woah, and you're not doing some business shit. But what you're doing is making things easier for us all. When we come home, we are all exhausted but seeing you happy makes us ease. And we eat dinner together so we can talk and say what's on our mind. And we listen to you because you give us energy in that hour. And with your career path, you're exploring the unknown and that's scary. There's no amount of books that tell you what is out there exactly. You always dream of exploring things. You want to be an explorer in your next life. Touch things that have never been seen with human eyes other than your own. And you're following your dream. It's truly beautiful. You're doing a lot. You're holding a lot. *lifts her chin* right?
J- it doesn't feel like it.
Z- then why were you crying?
J- ... because I was stressed...
Z- and if you weren't holding it all would you be stressed?
J- *shakes her head*
Z- exactly Baka.
J- *puts her head down in shame*
Z- *kisses her head again* hey.. hey...
J- ... *looks at him*
Z- I love the shit out of you *grabs her face and lifts her to him and kisses her*
J- *kisses back*
Z- *pulls away* and so does william *bites her cheek* and so does karla. *kisses a ticklish spot on her neck*
J- eee! *giggles and pushes him away*
Z- *chuckles*
J- *stops laughing and looks at him*
Z- ...
J- god I love you *smashes her lips on his*
Z- *smiles into the kiss then deepens it*
And that's that friend. I'm hella tired. Hopefully I can sneak in an hour nap. Hopefully
