J- *calls zack*
Z- *answers* Jessie, it's three am. What are you doing up?
J- *trying to swallow her sob*
Z- ... Jessie? *sits up in his bed*
J- I'm uhh ... eating cold chicken nuggets on the kitchen floor.
Z- what happened? *getting his shoes on*
J- oh nothing much. ....... cold chicken nuggets are good on nights like these
Z- what type of night is this
J- *looks out the window* it's a little cloudy. But the moon is big so the clouds are super white on a dark dark night. It's probably cool outside
Z- mhm. Why are you up at three am
J- ummm ................... no reason
Z- I see *covers up the microphone so he can start his car without her knowing*
Zacks mom- *opens up her window* Zack WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU GOING AT THREE AM
Z- mom I have to make sure Jessie is alright
ZM- ... you better be back soon!
Z- of course mom. *drives off* so jessie... is your third favorite color navy blue?
J- yeah!
Z- and your ... 6th is .. um... purple *purposely gets it wrong*
J- noooooo it goes red then pink then navy blue then yellow then green then orange. And if we want to be specific then it goes classy red then soft pink then navy blue then bright taffy yellow then Forrest green then peachy orange. And you can... I guess say that purple is my 7th favorite color.
Z- *parks his car* I see. If you had an eighth favorite color what would it be?
J- ummmm sea foam green
Z- I don't know what that color looks like
J- well you have your phone just look it up
Z- now now... I know you're snappy right now but don't snap at me.
J- .. okay.. so take green then mix it with grey. Add a little bit of white. Probably a tiny tiny dab of blue
Z- *hops the wall*
J- some more green and bam. It's almost like a minty green but lighter.
Z- sounds like a nice color
J- it is I guess
Z- *stands by the sliding door getting courage to knock on it*
J- ... *eats another nugget reminding herself that she isn't having the best time*
Z- .. *knocks on the back door*
J- oh shit. Zack someone is at my back door
Z- *chuckles* it's me
J- .. oh.. *opens it*
Z- *ends the call*
J- *standing there with a tear stained face*
Z- come here *opens his arms*
J- *hugs him*
Z- *slowly lowers the both of them to the floor* why aren't you sleeping
J- *starts crying* I- ... I don't like .. sl-sleeping
Z- shhh calm down. Take deep breaths
J- *tries to but chokes a little*
Z- *rubs her back* shh
J- I get all of these bad dreams. And it always leaves me alone. I'm left standing there by myself. Like why can't it be me who dies and not you guys
Z- *rubs her back*
J- I'm so sick of it. And I'm never able to wake up from them. I just sit there. Watching you guys bleed to death then have someone else die. And I never have the power to stop it. I can't do anything. I'm either gone when it happens or there when it happens but it's out of my power to do anything and I'm sick of it. I'm sick and tired of watching everyone die. And I can't do anything!
Z- *hugs her tighter*
J- and yeah it's a fear of mine. Watching people leave me left and right. Why can't I have a normal fear. Like a fear of clowns or spiders. I have to be scared of fucking being alone. And I have to watch you guys leave. Or anyone else leave. And watch them walk out of my life and have no power over it.
Z- I won't leave.
J- don't say that
Z- I promise you I won't leave you
J- you don't know that. My friends before said that too and look at where I am!
Z- *hugs her more* I'm not gonna break that promise. My oath to you is to never leave you. I won't ever do it.
J- are you sure?
Z- I'm positive. And if I leave one day, you're allowed to yell at me
J- *hugs him tighter* please don't make it come to that.
Z- I won't. *rubs her head*
J- *hugs him then eventually falls asleep*
Z- *picks her up and placed her on the couch* I would stay here but I don't think your dad is gonna like that.
J- *still sleeping*
Z- *puts a blanket over her and kisses her head* I won't leave you.
Jessie's dream after he put her on the couch:
J- Zack how could you?!
Z- *just standing there*
J- you told me you would never leave! Never! And look at where we are! You're gone. You fucking left me!
Z- I know...
J- Fuck you!
Z- ..
J- I FUCKING HATE YOU
Z- I'm sorry
J- I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you.
Z- I know I know *tears up*
J- *hits his chest over and over and over again*
Jessie's dad- Jess! Wake up!
J- *bolts up*
Jim- why are you on the couch?
J- I couldn't fall asleep.
Jim- and you made yourself chicken nuggets?
J- .. yeah... sorry
Jim- it's fine. I hope you get better sleep. I'm off to work. Bye. Have a nice day at school
J- okay. Bye dad!
Jim- *leaves*
And that is that
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