cameron boyce imagines

too much to ask

niall horan everyone, making me an emotional mess 😂💓😬

waiting here, for someone
i sat on the bench, knowing that he wouldn't show up
only yesterday we were on the run
i think back to this weekend, and all of the chaos we caused, how close we were and the bonding we did.
you smile back at me and your face lit up the sun
that morning, watching the sun rise in his eyes, defied my world.
now i'm waiting here for someone
and now i'm sitting all alone
oh and love, do you feel this rough?
i don't wish this on my worst enemy, even if it is him right now. all i want to do is whisper "cameron." and have him by my side.
why's it only you i'm thinking of?
i hope he's only thinking about me; but knowing cameron, he's out with his friends, looking for a new girl to call his own.
my shadows dancing
i stepped into the small room that was ours at this school.
without you for the first time
i turn the music on and begin to do my routine, and glancing at the mirror hoping maybe i'll wake from the nightmare.
my heart is hoping
my head is spinning, my eyes are blurry but my feet are steady.
you'll walk right in tonight
he'll catch me at this part, he'll twirl me and we'll smile, like we're in love.
tell me there are things that you regret
i don't want to be alone, and i know he won't be for long.
cause if i'm being honest, i ain't over you yet
the tears fall out and smudge the makeup i didn't try with. i rushes out of the dance room and i go to my car.
that's all i'm asking
i sit in the small metal box on wheels and debate on whether i'm willing to welcome all the trouble back into my life, or if it's a waste.
is it too much, to ask?
is it too much to want? is it too much to think? or dream? i don't know; but, it wasn't like this in the beginning.
someone's moving outside
when i get home, i sit and watch the willow tree sway in the wind. i see his window light blink off and i whisper to myself "goodnight, cam."
the lights come on down the drive
i'm overwhelmed with nostalgia when i see him pop outside in the cool fall air with his basketball in his nike sweats, hoodie and the hat i got him for christmas
i forget you're not here when i close my eyes
i lay in my bed after watching him make some shots and stop to think. after we'd play, he'd come over here until i fell asleep and then he'd go to bed. 
do you still think of me sometimes?
do you miss me? do you see me in the little things? do you watch for me like i do you? do you feel every little thing lose it's fire when we're not together?
and oh, love, watch the sun come up
two years ago, we'd be waking up in the same bed, crawling out the window and watch the sun float above the horizon, occasionally snuggling into each other's shoulders and kissing cheeks.
don't it feel fucked up, we're not in love
now whenever i look into that tree, all i see is sadness, on both sides. i see all the memories, like the branches, droop to the ground.
my shadows dancing
i get up, do my routine again, because i know i need to nail it down. i know i need to move on, in more ways than one. neither of which i'll ever admit aloud.
without you, for the first time
still my heart falls apart, seeing his bedroom window from mine, and thinking how messy our lives are
my heart is hoping
i want to see you. i want to be with you. but that's my heart speaking over my head.
you'll walk in tonight
i remember the knock in my window, the hat hair cameron had, the homework discussed. the feelings. goals. needs. and i need that tonight more than ever.
and tell me there are things you regret
i want to peer inside your mind. i want to see the whole being of cameron. not your charming brown eyes, or flattering smile, or those earnest hands. i want to see what's behind everything again.
cause if i'm being honest, i ain't over you yet
there's no way for me to ever see anyone else the way i see you. there's nothing that can change my mind, my heart, and my soul. maybe one day you'll realize it too.
that's all i'm asking,
our lives went on. we graduated. we worked together
"is it too much to ask?"
i thought. maybe not, maybe so. but we're such good friends. we're such great coworkers and we're such amazing actors.
that's all i'm asking,
and it wasn't too much. three years later,
"is it too much to ask?"
finally came out of my lover's mouth. and now look at us. engaged, working on a movie, buying a house, and getting a puppy, named scout.

hey ladies and gents!  i'm so sorry for the unexcused absence! i've been so busy, playing sports, cheerleading getting started, along with facing personal things i kinda lost the drive to write.

i'm writing about four or five more on this book, and then i'll go to my it imagines.

a real note : i'm thinking on writing a little life lessons book? lemme know what you think.