Voltron, The Final Battle: Book 1, koi fish river

Distant

As our time at the diner continued, Pidge stayed silent, as she mainly just stared at her food or glanced at Keith ever now and then. Later that morning, Pidge stood up without saying a word, and walked out. I watched as she walked away while everyone else didn't seem to mind. I followed her out and peeked my head through the diner door. She was only a few feet away so she managed to notice me.

"Where are you going?" I asked, holding on to the door's white frame. "I'm heading back to the apartment." She replied unenthusiastically . "I'll go with you!" I said in hope I could start a conversation with her. As I sped walked towards her, I realized I wasn't able to finish my chilly. We then started walking down the pastel colored streets, as the sun shone on it.
"So Katie -"
"Pidge."
"There's no need to worry about. You can relax for a while."
"I'm not worrying. Why should I be worried when I know have an answer to the one thing I was worrying about."
"Shiro?"
She didn't respond.
"Well if you have nothing to worry about can I assume your not busy?"
"Yeah I guess. I built an entire lab so I can find Shiro actually. Now I know where he is so I won't be having any current task in hand besides the mission."
"You don't need to speak to me so formally. We've been friends since Garrisons."
She didn't react.
"So is your not busy, why not you catch up with Allura. No need to be so distant."
"Distant?"

Then she responded.
"I've been distant for a reason Lance. You think I've been ignoring you without a reason? For the first few months after the lions left, all you spoke and thought about was Allura. You think I wasn't worried? You were all I could think about for months! I really missed you but you isolated yourself. I tried to stay distant from you and Allura.... Although I was distant... it was because you were all I could think about, or care about... or even loved." She paused and looked at me angrily. She giggled with tears in her eyes. "Then I decided to move on I guess.... Keith was the only one who I really trusted for the next few years. Now I feel guilty that whenever you called I'd always pretend I'm busy traveling... just to stay distant."

I never really knew how my isolation effected others, or how I never saw how much Pidge cared and even loved me. But when she said "love" did she mean... love love?

We continued walking, closer and closer to the apartment and the more we walked, the less annoyed or irritated she looked.
"So you and Keith?" I asked.
"Oh yeah! I forgot to tell you."
"It's okay I see now."
We walked up towards the mirrored elevator and arrived at the apartment. She walked into the bathroom as I sat on the coach. Staring at the white walls, I began to think. "We're going to have to go on another mission and I'm going to miss Earth again." I thought. But it was fine. Although I didn't know what we were doing during the mission or why, I was just happy to have Allura happy again... But I really had to know since I wasn't paying attention during the meeting. Pidge then came out of the bathroom, wearing an oversized white shirt that fell across her knees with a bold black print on it saying: "I'll form the head." I taught it was funny because she formed he arm, but then I realized...
"Is that..."
"I don't wanna talk about it Lance."
She looked away and messed up her short pixie and plopped onto the couch, grabbed the remote on the beige side table and turned on the television. Her lazy expression slowly turning sad. Her hand that was reaching out towards the television with a remote starter shaking. I turned to her in confusion, then at the television. I didn't see why a cooking show would hurt her. Her eyes started filling up with tears, as she started rubbing her eyes. She was trying really hard not to cry, and by cry I mean CRY cry. The cry you'd hear a 7 year old cry after he was beaten up really badly in a fight. She took off her glasses and rubbed her eyes with her elbow, softly groaning as she tried not to cry out loud as she knew once she'd start, she couldn't stop.

At this point I still didn't get why. I didn't know how to cheer her up either. She was crying really badly. I decided to cheer her up. I then placed my hand on her back and tried to calm her down, but it wouldn't work. A few minutes later, Matt walked out of the bedroom and spotted Pidge crying. "Pidge what's wrong?" He asked walking up to her. It was hard for me to believe that Garrisons wouldn't tell Matt, one of Shiro's closest friends. Pidge blurted out as the tears rolled down her red cheeks. "Shiro's dead Matt!"

Matt's eyes widened. All of a sudden I found myself in a middle of a sibling cuddle session, but with more tears and yelling.

A few hours later, the rest of the group entered the apartment, confused on how the door was opened. "Where were you two? We were supposed to meet in the main lab to discuss the mis-" That was the moment where Allura glanced at the siblings cradling each other, sobbing. "Did I catch you guys at a bad time?" She asked. "Yeah...." I said slightly annoyed.