I dont feel like enough
So I do too much
Everything is falling away
And not in a good way
I'm fading and I'm raging
I'm nothing
If I'm not over compensating
For my self hatred
I'm so vacant
Thinking about all that
I could be replaced with
Thats why I'm distant lately
I dont understand love
Especially when it is
Directed at me
Amd especially
When it's me trying to love anybody
I think I'm a disaster
In the form of a symphony
I carry all the emotion
Amd the sound with me
A hurricain wraps around me
And I become a thread
To the wind
I'm swept away
With no time to think
I'll swim if I dont sink
But I've never been taught different
I think I'm losing
And I dont understand the meaning
Of the word winning
Cos I was never one for competition
It was not a position I cared to be in
Now I resent everything
And I'm arrested by the hurt I feel
But it's the only thing about me
That I think is completely real
Everything else is faded and gray
Amd so damn far away
Thats why I dont understand love
I have only known hate
And I've had too long to wait
You have stole my brain
Have been driving me insane
The corpse that is
The thoughts
I will never let leave my brain
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Litany by Nailinthewall
PoetryA book of short poems, prose and passages written during a period of my life. I could get famous one day, be one of the first people who can say I knew them before they were popular! You know you want to....
