Leave of absence

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I never liked you
Just the thoughts
That ensued around you
You gave me time to think
I just had too much time
On my hands
A watch made of fingertips
So I counted to ten
And gave you a pass
For everything wrong you did
And I gave myself one too
So I could have another moment with you
So I wasnt alone at all
So I was with someone
Just like you
You didnt need a name
You were a passing face
I was pacifist before
My knuckles met your fist
A pacifist is not past caring
About anger and all that it brings
They just have no reason for it
But with you I became violent
Tinged in blues and rouges
In sadness and angled in anger and sin
I became violet
Had too little to give
So tried to become everything
But in the end it wasnt to win
I lost to you
Became the everything was
Really known as nothing
I just mixed up the definitions
Like I was drinking whisky and coke
When it was mean to be rum
Because for a moment I thought
Maybe this is it
But you spilled gasoline
Over everything we could be
With the help of your perfect match
The most disastrous catalyst
You'll ever see
I'll strike up a conversation of beauty
And ruin it with words and worlds of hurt

Litany by NailinthewallWhere stories live. Discover now