The Pain is all worth it.

Day #4

Starting out as a normal day. My normal lazy day. In bed. All morning, of course. I am currently hooked in watching Boruto. I read in manga before Naruto but didn't watch the anime series. Now, I am watching the animated series of Boruto because I don't have good internet connection to read online.

I immediately thank the Lord when I woke up. I started reading my affirmations and list things that I am grateful for. Eventually, I went back to watching Boruto and sleeping afterwards.

What can I be thankful for today? Did I receive anything? Have I been blessed today? These questions are circling in my mind. Indeed, what are the answer?

Today, I am grateful I didn't overslept. My daughter had a good day at school and my grandfather is still alive as well as my other family members. We got food to eat and laughter is around the house. Nuisance is around the house. I am easily irritated but instead of being totally annoyed, today, I let it be. Today, I paid my aunt 500php. I guess we can't just keep on receiving. We have to give out. In order for our money to cycle, we have to give to receieve and receive to give. Today, I paid for my daughter's event at school. Today, my husband received his retention at work. (See? I keep on receiving everyday since day 1! Even small  amounts counts!) Also today, I did my yoga and pilates. It was a drag. But I did it! I decided to do it in the evening. Even if it's late already. Also, embarrassingly, I am about to take a bath. Yes. I was caught up all day being lazy. Another thing is that a friend of mine keep on bugging me. She's a negative person that is close minded. I hate actually the fact that she doesn't realised how blessed she is. She is way too far from my league. She kept on complaining being poor and nearly houseless and careless, but I knew she won't be. She is paranoid. She is repetitive. She is draining my energy. I realised that she may be drawn to me not because we are the same but because she needs my light. I have been giving her advices but she wouldn't listen. She refuses to listen. That's why, I am leaving her to the Lord. May she be guided and be calmed.

It may seem to be a normal day but these little details that made this day, is actually little signs from the Almighty.