TRUEST BLACK- S.B daughter

[21]

Hazel felt numb. Laying on her front so Madam Pomfey could work on the pain in her back made her actually realize how lonely she is, once again.

The Potter's, Remus, all the Weasley's, two woman she doesn't know and even her father were all surrounding Harry Potter's bed. Not even her mother was present at her side.

She contained the tears that were threatening to come out by closing her grey eyes. Only images of Cedric getting hit by the killing curse came back to her mind. It was a feeling of pain she has never felt before, yes she saw her aunt dead but she was still too young to understand the concept of death, tonight was sure going to leave nightmares for the rest of her life.

It all felt surreal, like she was in a bad dream. She learned so many things that day that her mind was slowly giving up.

Hazel opened her eyes taking in the sight of Sirius, his expression was serious, but Hazel liked how it softened slightly when he looked at her. Like the way he looked at her was different from how he looked at everyone else. She now knows the reason behind why he never bother to contact her, he didn't love her.

She now knows the reason behind why it is so hard for her to love somebody, she cannot. She still has weak feelings but it definitely takes her a while to get to like someone, let alone love. This actually makes her wonder if she ever actually loved somebody before, the answer was obvious.

Hazel instead focused on the white wand on the nightstand, she took it trying to break it but nothing happened, she was too weak to do it.

Madam Pomfey finished leaving her alone. She sat up putting back on her shirt, Hazel tried to tame her crazy hair but nothing could be done, it was all bloody and full of mud.

"Azie"

She heard from the door of the room. She slowly looked up seeing Kialo standing there with tears in his eyes. Hazel stood up and rushed to him engulfing him in a hug. She placed her head on his chest hearing his heart beats and that's when Hazel broke down. Tears streamed down her face while loud sobs left her mouth. The pain she felt was unbearable and having Kialo cry with her broke her heart even more.

This not only meant Voldemort was back, as their family was present at the grave yard it meant their loyalties were already stablished without their consent. Her learning of the important part she must play because of her wand placed her in a very difficult position, Hazel just wanted to run away.

All the people surrounding Harry's bed turned to look at the two lost teens with pity in their eyes. Sirius wanted so bad to cry with his daughter, he had to be stopped by Remus from interfering the hug. The girl loud sobs were too painful to hear, even Lily's eyes were getting glossy by just hearing her crying.

"Come on, I'll take you to the common room" Kialo said breaking the hug. He gently wiped her tear stained cheeks giving her a broken smile. Hazel only nodded, walking towards the bed she was at and grabbed the her wand. She walked towards the door not giving a second glance at Potter, when she was stopped by her name being called.

"Hazel, hold on"

The deep voice of Sirius Black said reaching his daughter. Hazel had a hard face on, watching him with cold eyes.

"Hazel I—"

"No...no. No! All my life I was neglected. I was abused for years and it was all your fault—fuck all of you. Even the Malfoy's were there for me when you weren't and they are terrible people." She said, tears running down her cheeks as for the first time in her life she really looks at her father.

She observed as the tall man took out an envelope from his pocket, extending his hand towards her with it.

Hazel thought about it twice before grabbing the envelope and not giving a second glance back she left the room for good.

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At night, laying down on her bed she remembered the letter and took it from her nightstand opening it carefully.

Hazel,
This letter is for you, please read it before you burn it or do anything to it. I know you have all the right to be mad but at least let me explain.

I know you might think it's late, and it is, but I made a promise to myself to explain everything to you when you were sixteen just because you would be able to understand more, please bare with me.

I need you to understand that you are here for a reason and not just a mistake like how your mother made you believe. Your mother and I used to be friends, she fell in love with me and as I didn't return the love she decided to give a love potion.
We married-with me still under the potion- and After a year you came as a surprise but nevertheless I still received you with open arms.

I named you Hazel for the gorgeous eyes you were born with, just like your mothers but unfortunately they started to change to the grey ones you have, exactly like mine.

After a year your mother's family found out about us, she stopped giving me the potion and she left with you. I knew you were the reminder to your mother of me because of how much resemblance you have of me. Leading for her to cast you aside since a very young age. I always tried with the help of James, Remus, Lily and even Hagrid to have you by my side at all times.

It wasn't until Harry was born that your mother panicked by me taking care of you almost every day. A prophecy was made about Harry and Voldemort, unfortunately you made part of it. Nobody really knows why or how, it was Dumbledore who told us about it.
It wasn't until you were five that your mother took you away from me fleeing the country. I searched for you with the help of the Ministry for years. I sent letter after letter to every house we thought you were living at, in hopes you could reply, but nothing ever came.

I was a bad father and I deserve all the hate in the world you can think of.
All those times I was at the school for what seemed Like no reason at all? It was because of you Hazel. I always tried to be there even if you thought I was not. I went through the same childhood and teenage years as you, and I regret deeply how I failed at not doing nothing more for saving you from it.

Don't worry too much dear, life will get better. Tomorrow will be there and gone before you know it. Don't dwell on the bad in life, yes, it's very temping to give up, I know.
Focus on the good and nows, just remember this, if it's not a patronus worthy moment then just forget about it.
Don't lose the spark and that wonder your eyes hold.

I'm here for you Hazel, even If I haven't been for a part of your life. Even if you don't see me as a father, I'm still yours.
Please don't hesitate to write to me and If it makes you feel any better I will receive you with open arms just like I did when you were born.

Hazel found herself crying again, she wanted so bad to speak with him, hug him and overall have a family.

But the fact that he left her just like that, and still didn't try hard enough to look for her broke her heart. If he loved her so much, why only now try to make things better? Why not earlier,

That night she cried herself to sleep just like she did everyday during her childhood.