My Story.

Alone in Japan.

It had been a long week. I was missing Kerry and Joe. Yes I had called her every day. At least twice a day once before going to bed and as soon as I woke up and if I managed to get a few minutes to myself throughout the day I would call even if all I got to hear her say was hello but I still missed her terribly.

The last time I spoke to her she seemed off. Exhausted even. I asked if she was okay she tried her best to put on an "I'm fine." voice. I knew that voice. I'd put it on myself so many times over the years. Occasionally during an interview the Bowie mask would slip, almost come off but just one look from Corinne and it would appear again. The plastic smile would be used and Bowie would woo the audience/reporters, no one spotted that David Jones needed to be asked if he was okay. No one ever asked David Jones if he was okay, apart from Kerry. Once when I called she asked what was wrong.

"Nothing sweetheart. I'm fine. Happy to hear your voice missing home too....but I'm fine."

"I'm not stupid. I saw you on the BBC last night. You might have been laughing and joking but I could see it."

"See what love?"

"The sparkle. I could see it wasn't there."

"Sparkle?"

"Yes. When you were here. Your eyes sparkled when you laughed. The sparkle wasn't there last night. Please what's wrong?"

"I'm home sick sweetheart. That's all. It a lonely life. Even if you're surrounded by people."

"Oh. So why do you do it?"

"I don't know sometimes. I guess I feel I owe it to my fans."

"Oh . Will you be home soon?"

"I've got to be here for another couple of weeks sweetheart."

"Ohh. Okay."

I could hear the sadness in her voice. I teared up myself. Unfortunately I didn't hear coco come in. She hung up on Kerry.

"FUCK SAKE CORINNE. I WAS JUST ABOUT TO TELL HER I LOVE HER."

"Exactly darling. You were going to make a fool of yourself."

"She loves me too Corinne. I can hear it in her voice."

"Nonsense. You're mistaking pity for love. She's probably glad I hung up. Then she can go back to bed with Joseph."

I covered my ears with my hands.

"NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO!!! YOU'RE WRONG KERRY WOULD NEVER DO THAT."

She picked up the phone and dialled home.

"Oh hello Steven is Joseph there?"

Steve's Glasgow accent came through loud.

"Nay e's nort. E's upstairs wit Kerray. An ee is trinah tell us thee ain't shargin. Yeah raght."

She hung up and smiled at me. I grabbed my coat.

"I'm going for a walk......ALONE."

I don't know how long I was gone for but it was long enough to know I was going to get it big style when I got back. I somehow found myself at the Hiroshima ground zero. I sat on one of the benches. The pain and suffering that had happened there was somehow palpable. I sat and thought about what I had heard. I went over it in my head. Trying to give reasons why Joe would be upstairs with her.

1. Coco hung up on her. She might've thought I had. That would have possibly made her cry. Duncan would have gone after her to see what was wrong.

2. She was bulimic. Being cut off might have set off an episode. So Joe would have been taking care of her.

3. She was angry at being cut off and was packing her bags to get away from me and Joe would be trying to stop her.

Unfortunately after coco and Steve my thoughts ended up with her crying, Joe holding her and it leading to them kissing. (Asaahhhhh how did coco manage to get inside my head so effectively. Why did she have to say anything. Why did Steve have to say that.)

I got to the venue 15 minutes before we went on stage. I was fuming and ignored everyone. Especially Corinne. There was a bottle of whiskey just off stage. I wanted to drink it in one but I knew I would be incapacitated and I needed to call Kerry and explain what had happened. We did the gig and I decided not to stay behind to meet the fans. The guys had been trying to get me to have some fun with the girls that came backstage all week but I was going to stay faithful to Kerry. I walked into the meeting area and there was already half a dozen girls. I got pounced on and offered sexy time immediately. I prized their hands off my cock and said.

"No thanks."

One of them was relentless.

"Tight little girl pussy. Will suck you good too."

She lifted up her skirt to reveal she had no knickers on. She grabbed my hand and tried shoving it between her legs

"See tight wet little girl pussy."

I snatched my hand away and shouted no.

I walked away. Coco offered me a drink but after the airport I didn't trust her. I told the guys I was going back to the hotel. I wanted to say I was going home. Once I got to the hotel. I poured myself a whiskey. There was only enough for one glass which suited me fine. I got undressed and retrieved Kerry's knickers from my locked drawer. I climbed into bed. It was lunchtime in England so I knew Kerry would be awake. I was going to ask her to go upstairs and then we could talk dirty while masturbating. I drank my drink and then picked up the handset.

I was woken by Corinne. She was shaking me and telling me angrily that Joe wanted to talk to me. I realised that I had passed out. I hadn't called Kerry.