The Spaces Between Us | hariana | liriana

|30| Torn.

"What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you?"

-Breakeven

The Script

--2 months later--

HARRY'S POV

I didn't forget about Ariana, but I worried that she would never call. She said she needed time, and after everything, I think the least I can do is give it to her. I'm pulled out of my thoughts when there's a knock on my bedroom door. When I don't answer, the person walks in anyways. To my surprise, it's Nicki. She's wearing a short party dress, and seems uncomfortable. We haven't talked much since that day in Liam's apartment when Ariana was missing.

"Uh, I know you don't want to talk to anyone right now, but have you checked your phone?" she asks, stepping into my dark room(I think better with the lights off).

"No. What's the point?" I answer.

"Well, your mom probably called. She misses you."

"Nick, me and my mother didn't really end our last visit on the best terms..."

Then, her phone goes off.

"Well, if you don't want to talk to your mom, then you might want to talk to her."

I spring up from my bed.

"Her?" I ask just to be sure.

Instead of replying she tosses her phone to me, and I catch it, sure enough, "Ari" flashes on the screen as the phone vibrates. As I press the answer button, I hear the door close as Nicki leaves.

"Hey, Nicki. Is Harry there? I've been trying to reach him." She says, and I forget to reply, just enjoying the sound of her voice. "Hello? Onika. You there?"

I clear my throat, snapping out of my trance. "It's Harry."

"Oh. Hi."

"Hi."

"Uh," She sighs. "I've made up my mind."

"Yeah?"

"Look, Harry. I love you, but your my poison. You're like the venom in a snake, and I tried to be the antivenom, I really did, but it didn't work. I think somewhere deep down, I knew you were bad for me, but I wanted to be wrong. With all my fucking heart I wanted to be more wrong than I've ever been. But you just made it real that I can't be with you, because you're a wild one, and I convinced myself that I could tame you. Too bad no one told me that I was setting myself up to fail." She sniffles, and my eyes start watering.

"Please tell me that you're not saying what I think you're saying." I beg.

"You're like a cigarette to me. In the beginning I would just hold the thing that would kill me between my teeth without letting it actually kill me. But eventually, I lit you, and you slowy killed me from the inside. You made it hard to breath, and you damaged my heart, but you were so addictive, that I overlooked your toxin. Now, hear I am half alive, hardly breathing, and part of me wants to inhale you again, but the other part knows that you'll kill me fully. And I don't want to die, Harry. I don't want to be a soulless void that one day, won't be able to go on anymore. You destroyed me, but I forgive you. I want you to know that if I survive this, when I survive this, I will be stronger, wiser, better. I'll be okay, Harry."

"But I won't. I can't live without you. I love you."

"You'll be okay, too, Harry. You don't know what love is. You're tired of being all alone, but you don't notice that you've had someone there all along."

"Wha--"

"Go call Kendall. I think she's waited long enough to have you to herself."

"You're the one that I need. I said I'd go to the moon and back for you, and I meant it."

"You gotta make it out of the driveway to get to the moon. Things will get better, Haz. I promise. I know it's late, but Merry Christmas."

"You too." I hear from outside my bedroom, the group and their party saying "5,4,3,2,1!" I add, "and Happy New Year."

"Yeah. I guess this is our chance to both start off fresh."

"Yeah. So, this is goodbye."

"I never liked goodbyes. They seem like forever. I'll see you later."

"Yeah. See you later." I say before she hangs up.

There's a knock on my door, and when Nicki comes in, she takes one glance at me, and open her arms as I run into them.

"I'm so sorry, Haz." She tells me, and I don't reply. I just let my tears run freely.

I remember the last time we kissed. It seems like it's been centuries since I've felt her lips on mine. Her words were like whips at my heart, each one ripping it to shreds. I've had girls tell me that I have no heart. That I just have black void where my heart should be, and since I didn't care about what they said, I thought it was true. Now I know that I do have a heart, it's just torn.

ARIANA'S POV

You'd think that I would be relieved but it tore me apart to have to say that to him. But for once, I need to start living for me. I think the worst part wasn't losing him. It was losing me. I used to be the happiest girl in the world, then I met Harry Styles. The first thing he said about me was that I was a bitch, and I should've known but something in those thick curls and emerald eyes intrigued me, and in the end it came back to bite me in the ass. But this isn't the last time he'll hear from me. No, I may have said that we were done, but something tells me that we have only just begun.....

*A|N: HAPPY NEW YEAR MOTHERFUCKERS! BET YOU WEREN'T EXPECTING AN UPDATE TODAY WELL YOUR WELCOME. ONE CHAPTER LEFT IN BOOK ONE! HOPE YOU BITCHES ARE READY....

~Ashley (;