The scars on our hearts (Yuwin)

Surprise

When Johnny finally made it home that morning he was exhausted, lucky for him he had to take a cab or he would have fallen asleep at the wheel and probably died.
After paying the cab fare he trudged up the stairs to his apartment. He was so done with the day and had no clue that it only just begun. When he rounded the corner after leaving the elevator he seen a little person curled up in front of his door, sleeping soundly with his head leaned against the wall. After realizing who it was he rushed over.
"Renjun? What are you doing out here?" He opened his door then leaned over and picked Renjun off the floor. Renjun slowly woke up but panicked as soon as he realized he was being carried. He started thrashing around, almost falling from Johnny's grasp. Johnny just held on tighter trying to reassure the boy with his soft words.
"It's ok Renjun it's just me, it's Johnny. You came to my house. I've got you, you're safe." Renjun calmed and clutched onto Johnny crying his little heart out.
"What's wrong ba..uh Renjun? I'm here. Did someone hurt you?" He shook his head no but didn't want to let go of his only safety at the moment.
When John finally got him calm enough he set him on the couch and with a promise to return shortly, he went to make them some tea.
When he returned he found Renjun curled up in his blanket on the couch, he smiles fondly at the cute sight but quickly remembers what happened just minutes ago.
"Ok spill, what's got you so upset?" Renjun stares blankly at the wall as he softly speaks.
"I'm sorry to bother you but I had a nightmare and I can't tell Sicheng about it because I don't want him to know what happened to me. The horrible things I did, I'm so disgusting and I don't want him to know."
He's sobbing uncontrollably again and all Johnny can do is run his fingers through his hair to sooth him.
"Do you want to talk about it? I promise I won't judge you." Renjun scoffs.
"Yeah, you and Yuta judged me the moment you met me." Johnny scowls, thinking back.
"That's not exactly fair Renjun, you were jumping at us trying to perform sex acts on us after we said no." He cries again.
"See I'm a slut and disgusting and, and I should leave. I'm sorry I bothered you." He didn't get very far before Johnny pulled him back, right onto his lap.
"You are going no where in this condition. Your heart is so big and so special and you care so much about your brother you were willing to do whatever it took to get to him and honestly? I admire you, you are a very strong person. I think you are amazing, you are none of those awful things you said. Look, I know this is hard but I know someone who is an amazing doctor and he could help you through this. You've been through something traumatic and I feel like a professional would be helpful." He's still holding on hoping Renjun won't decide to run away.
"You've come this far, been through so much. It would be a shame to give up now. I know Sicheng needs you just as much as you need him so it would be best for you to heal." Renjun didn't move or speak, he didn't really know what to say. The words Johnny said had effected him, especially the part about Sicheng needing him.
"Do you really think I'm strong?" He asked peeling his face away from Johnny's now soaked shirt. Johnny looked him straight in the eyes and answered.
"The strongest." Renjun hugs him again.
"Thank you, I don't know what I would have done without you." Johnny just pats his back as he makes him stand.
"You can come to me anytime, anywhere. I'll be there for you ok?" He stands up to clear their dishes, the tea having gone cold a long time ago. "Follow me." He says walking away.
"Are you hungry?" He asks grabbing Renjun a glass of water to rehydrate. After swallowing it all in one go he sits at a bar stool and leans his head in his hands.
"He was touching me, making me do things I didn't want. I never wanted any of it. I didn't want to lose my virginity to a creepy stranger for money. I wanted it to be special. Ever since it happened I dream about it, I wake up feeling like my skin is crawling and I can still feel the pain that I felt for days after." Johnny listened, silent tears running down his face as he was turned away from him. The pain in his voice as he spoke made every part of him ache for the younger boy.
"I'm so sorry this happened to you, you deserve nothing but happiness." He said sadly.
"I should probably head back so Sicheng doesn't panic that I'm not there." Johnny just hands him his phone.
"Call or text him and tell him your with me, we'll make up a story as to why later. I want you to stay with me today ok?" Renjun just nods obediently and texts his brother.
"Now go clean up in the guest bath, I'll leave you clothes. Then come to my room ok?" Renjun nods again but this time his mind is running a mile a minute trying to understand the implications of what Johnny actually wants. It scares him a little but he still trusts him more than he has anyone before.

When he gets to Johnny's room he sees the already showered man sitting in a hoodie and sweats with his Disney plus ready and some snacks and juice.
Johnny pats the space next to him.
"Come on, we'll watch anything you want until we fall asleep ok?" Johnny asks smiling brightly at Renjun who returns it even brighter.
"Thank you." He says before crawling up next to him and picking Peter Pan and settling in for the film.
Johnny fought sleep, as hard as it was he wanted Renjun to get some rest and he couldn't go to sleep until the younger did. Once he noticed his head flop over onto his shoulder and heard his heavy breathing he shut off the tv, moved Renjun into a more comfortable position before finally succumbing to sleep himself. The last thoughts in his head being about the sad boy next to him, hoping he will heal quickly. He really did think Renjun was one of the strongest people he knew.