The scars on our hearts (Yuwin)

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Meanwhile......

"Hey Taeyong, where's my brother?" Renjun asks when he walks in alone. Taeyong pauses for a moment, thinking carefully on what to say.
"Well, he um left with Yuta? And I think maybe he plans to sleep at his house?" He scratches his neck awkwardly.
"Oh hey Johnny, what are you doing here?" He changed the subject as quickly as he could.
"Oh, I came with Yuta but I guess I'll have to find my own ride home." He says with a pout. Ten walks out from Taeyong's bedroom freshly showered and hugs him. They stood in the middle of the room like this for a while before Renjun spoke up.
"At least Sicheng and Yuta have the decency to not do IT in front of us." Johnny laughs as Taeyong stares at him with wide eyes.
"How did you? Wait, what do you mean by it? We're just hugging." He crosses his arms defiantly and waits for an answer.
"It, you know sex? The thing you two like to do 24/7, the thing I know you're thinking about doing right now." Johnny is now cackling at Taeyong's face, Ten really couldn't be bothered on the other hand.
"You really shouldn't know about these things, much less talk about it so openly."
Renjun's angry face returns and Johnny is quick to grab his hand to calm him.
"I'm really sick of this you know, I'm not a child. I've probably seen things and done things that you fortunately will probably never have to deal with. I am legally an adult and would like to be treated as such. Yes I'm small and I may look young and innocent but I haven't been in a long time. Now if you'll excuse us, Johnny would you like to come to my room and watch tv? It feels stuffy in here." He tugs Johnny's hand, to which the other quickly obeyed.
He really doesn't know how or why this cute little human has so much control over him but he won't complain, he will just go with the flow.
"I'm sorry, ok? It's true though you look young and I know I shouldn't but I feel like since I am older than you I should try to take care of you. Sicheng would want that too. So I'm sorry if I overstep from time to time but I'm still going to be your momma like it or not. Sicheng has to deal with it too." Renjun had stopped to listen to Taeyong and decided he'll forgive him this time.
"It's ok, it's just annoying but I'll get over it. It's just weird having someone care about you." He pauses. "Now I know why Sicheng likes it here so much."
He tugs Johnny into his room and forces him onto the bed. He helps himself to Johnny's lap and nestles his face in the crook of his neck. The older of the two is not quite sure what to think of this but rolls with it and strokes his back.
"You know, you shouldn't be so hard on us. We just want what's best for you and we can't help it that you're small and cute. I get the feeling your parents didn't treat you like a baby ever? Always had to be mature to handle the situation, then what happened when you left." He stops to take a moment, it's hard for him to think about what Renjun has been through and saying it is even harder.
"Let us take care of you, let us baby you. It's just in our nature." Renjun sighs.
"But if you treat me like a child you will never see me as a man, and I really like you Johnny." He says nervously. Johnny is a bit flustered, not really expecting a confession but realistically he remembers the way in which they met and has his doubts that they are even real feelings but of course he doesn't want to upset the boy.
"Ok first of all, I don't want to treat you like you're my child. I just want to keep you safe, when you get hurt I want to kiss it better, and most of all I want to care without you getting angry."
Renjun squeezes him tighter and kisses his neck.
"So if you want to kiss my hurt away, does that mean you actually want to kiss me? Would you date me?"
Renjun looks up expectantly with a cute hopeful expression on his face.
Johnny awkwardly coughs and looks away, Renjun soon gets the hint and looks down sadly at his fingers that have been fidgety the whole time. Johnny sighs but finally speaks.
"Look Renjun, I would date you. I don't care if you're a few years younger than me and you're really cute and sweet but..."
Renjun tries to get up but Johnny holds him in place.
"I just want you to do something before we get ahead of ourselves. I want you to go to therapy. Make sure what you're feeling is truly that. If after you sort through everything that's going on in your head you still have these feelings then we'll talk." Renjun shakes his head sighing.
"I feel like that's your way of brushing me off. I know you probably think I'm gross, the things I did to survive make me a lesser person I know, but..."
He was cut off mid sentence by a soft sweet kiss on the lips.
"You know that's not true, I'll be honest here. I do feel something for you but I can't exactly explain what it is, I don't even know for sure. But for the sake of both of our hearts I ask that you get some help for your emotional scars. I believe this is the second time I've had to tell you that your not gross in any way and I don't want to spend the rest of my life reassuring you of something you should already know. I'm here for you and always will be no matter what you decide but I can't be with you in any other way if you don't get help. I don't think that would be fair to either one of us."
Renjun wipes the silent tears falling down his cheeks and kisses Johnny on the cheek.
"Do you still want to watch a movie with me?" He questions in a scratchy voice while Johnny sadly smiles back.
"Of course, you pick."
They were half way through the movie when Renjun leans in and whispers softly.
"Can you set up an appointment for me? And will you take me, make me feel better after with ice cream and cuddles?" Johnny laughs genuine and happily.
"I'll hold your hand every step of the way, and when you don't want me to I'll step away."
The two happily returned to the movie, relishing in each other's warmth.
"You know we would make an unlikely pair, the two of us. You're a giant and I'm small." Johnny chuckles but adds on.
"I am weak but you're my strength. I am goofy and you are serious. But when I'm gloomy, that little light that shines through your eyes when you smile would turn my frown upside down. We have to be opposite to make a whole, if we are the same we couldn't connect. Your heart, my heart can't come together if we are cut from the same mold. There has to be two interlocking pieces." Renjun can't help but stare in awe at the man snuggled next to him.
"You really are something else Johnny." He says as he starts to giggle.
"I hope that's in a good way." Johnny says trying not to laugh himself.
"The best."