The scars on our hearts (Yuwin)

Im sorry

It's been a week now of Yuta coming over and asking if he was ok, making him food and watching him eat.
Sicheng didn't mind the company so much or the fact that Yuta seemed to genuinely care for him but he would much rather it be a friendship than a caregiver type relationship. He doesn't really have any friends other than Taeyong whom he's really come to discover that he treated him badly. Really when he thinks about it Taeyong has done nothing but care for and look after him and all he's done in return is make him worry. He's feeling well rested now and wants to get back in the swing of things, he's been catching up on assignments and lectures online but he needs to get out of the house.
He washes up and goes to get Taeyong so they can spend a much needed friend day together.
"Taeyong?" He says timidly.
"Hmm?" Taeyong responds as he too is doing some work on his laptop.
"I was wondering if we could maybe go out today? Get a meal, go for a walk? Anything really, I need to get out and I want to talk with you as well." Taeyong smiles bigger than Sicheng has ever seen. The fact that Sicheng is initiating this and they've never really hung out outside the apartment because they're too busy.
"Yes let's go." Sicheng laughs at his excitement and goes to tell Renjun they are leaving. They decide to leave their phones off so they can just focus on each other and have a good day.
"Let's go get some lunch, anything you want and then we'll go on a walk. Sound good?" Sicheng nods in excitement and decides he wants steak so they find the nearest steakhouse and eat until they are about to explode, which for Sicheng still wasn't a lot but at least he was eating again.
"I can't tell you how happy I am to see you actually eat a full meal. If I would have known it would take a man named Yuta to get you this healthy I would have hunted him down a long time ago." Taeyong says with a chuckle.
"Hey, it wasn't all him. Honestly it was a lot of things but I think passing out at work and the embarrassment of the owner of the club being the one to find me was a wake up call that I needed. You've been a great friend to me and I didn't see it and I'm sorry." Taeyong tries to speak up but Sicheng holds up his hand to shush him.
"I was so consumed in my goal of succeeding and proving that my parents were wrong and I wasn't a waste of life that I didn't see what I had right next to me. Then seeing Renjun walk in and knowing that he would see me as a failure also made me want to get better, and yes a scary looking Yuta handing me food everyday is also inspiration." Taeyong smiles as he wipes the tears from sicheng's face.
"I'm glad, trust me I don't have a hero complex or anything. I'm just happy you're getting healthy, no matter what or who it takes to get you there." Sicheng nods and stands.
"Thank you for lunch Taeyong but next time I get to pay since I was the one to invite you." He says rolling his eyes.
"Yeah yeah, I think we should go on a walk now." Taeyong says as he grabs Sicheng's hand after retrieving his credit card.
"So, you like him don't you?" Sicheng's face heats up a little.
"Well I mean he is very attractive and caring too but I'm sure he's not in to me. I don't know his sexuality, I don't really know him that well in all honesty but yeah, unfortunately I do kind of like him." He smiles sadly.
"Why would that be unfortunate? I mean he's hot and smart, he's rich as well. I say go for it." Sicheng laughs. Neither realizing they were in front of there apartment complex already.
"Says the man who has the confidence to have sex on our shared sofa with a homeless dude after only knowing him one day." Taeyong Fakes offense.
"Touché, but he isn't just a homeless dude to me. We've talked a lot believe it or not and I like him. Yes we kind of moved fast but hey a guy has needs what can I say?" Sicheng chuckles quietly.
"I've always wanted to be that kind of person. Attractive, funny, and confident but I'm none of those." Taeyong literally chokes on air.
"What? I get that you are not confident and I think your comedy may need a little work but you are a very attractive person and the fact that you can't see that is..." he is interrupted before he can even finish.
"Astonishing. Have you ever really looked in a mirror?" Both Taeyong and Sicheng are shocked but Taeyong recovers faster, he smiles knowingly and nudges Sicheng in the shoulder.
"I'm sorry, I over heard and I agree with him." Yuta says sheepishly. He looks down at his feet and sighs.
"I know that ever since I saw you that night, no ones beauty can compare. You are so much more than just attractive, you're angelic. Your beautiful eyes that hold an innocence in them, the perfect shape of your cheek bones and those perfectly plump kissable lips of yours have been on constant replay in my mind for weeks." His voice now a hushed whisper as Sicheng inches closer to hear him, he doesn't know what takes him over but before he knows it his lips are pressed against Yuta's own. It takes Yuta surprisingly almost too long to respond but when he does there is no holding back. The kiss is heated and full of want. Full of a desire that neither could explain.
Taeyong witnessed most of this but decided to give them privacy and head inside.
When they finally break apart for air Sicheng can't help himself and whispers three words in Yuta's ear that will undoubtedly change everything.
"I want you." Yuta kisses him hard again, this time picking him up and carrying him to the front seat of his car for the painful drive to his place.
The drive there was not as awkward and silent as Yuta expected, he thought for sure that Sicheng would get embarrassed and rethink his choices but this is a side of dear sweet Sicheng he never thought he would see.
He can barely stay on the road. When Sicheng finally works loose his belt and unzips his pants, then looks up at him with those innocent eyes he could almost pull the car over right there and fuck him on the side of the road but decides that this precious boy needs to be shown more dignity than that.
Now driving with Sicheng's head bobbing up and down on his hard shaft he barely makes it to the parking garage in one piece.
"Sicheng, baby we're here. You need to stop now and we'll finish this in my bedroom ok?" Sicheng looks up with glossy eyes, it almost frightens Yuta until he realizes that it's from choking. Thinking that he was maybe having second thoughts about this scares Yuta enough to want to slow this down and maybe put the brakes on this whole thing.
Sicheng controls himself for the walk to the elevator and even when those doors close he chooses to restrain himself and act like an adult.
When they finally get to the door of the apartment Yuta grabs his hand.
"Are you sure about this? Because once we cross this threshold I don't know if I can hold myself back, and honestly I don't want to hurt you." Sicheng smiles gently and leans in to kiss Yuta softly on the lips.
"Thank you for your concern but I'm not as fragile as I seem. I understand the consequences and rewards of doing this and trust me I still want you." He stops talking and looks into Yuta's dark eyes.
"Please, fuck me." Really for Yuta, the words meant less to him than the look on Sicheng's face. He didn't need much more than that. He wants this just as much if not more than Sicheng so he turns him, slamming him into the door in the process. He presses his body up against the not so innocent boy and fervently kisses down his neck. Sicheng's breath gets caught as the sensation ripples through him.
After the obscene amount of forplay they entertained the security cameras with they finally decided to take this inside.

To be continued...

Sorry it took me so long, writers block, holidays and work and also writers block.
Anyway I hope you enjoy 😊