The scars on our hearts (Yuwin)

The scars that make us who we are

Bursting through the door Yuta once again picks Sicheng up and wraps his legs around his waist.
He can't get enough, the taste of Sicheng's lips the feel of his slender body on his finger tips, it's enough to drive him mad. When they finally make it to the bed Yuta is gentle in laying him down, his kisses slow to a sensual need as his fingers rake through Sicheng's hair. When he slowly starts to lift Sicheng's shirt that's when things come to an abrupt halt.
"Wa wa wait. Stop um maybe we can do it with my clothes still on?" Yuta sees the panic in his eyes and realizes he better let Sicheng make the calls here.
"Are you a virgin? Because if you are that's ok, we can stop or take it slow, whatever."
Sicheng chuckles with a mixture of sadness and disgust.
"Mentally yes, physically no. But listen, I don't want to ruin the mood so..." at this point Yuta is on his back while Sicheng is leaning over him.
Yuta is confused and also just sad for this boy but can't help the moan that leaves his lips when he feels a warm wet mouth on his throbbing member.
"Sicheng, baby you don't have to do this we can stop." Sicheng looked up at him once again, this time his eyes told a story of sadness and fear.
"I really want you so bad right now Yuta and I want you to know that I am not only physically ready, I'm not scared to lose my virginity to you at all. I just don't want you to see my flaws." To say Yuta was shocked would be an understatement.
"Flaws? Everything I see about you is perfect." Sicheng smiles sweetly and grabs his hand.
"That's kind of you to say but it's honestly my hurdle to get over and if you are angry and want to kick me out I understand completely." Yuta pulls him up so he's now lying on top of him and cards his fingers through his hair gently.
"I want you to stay, let's just sleep tonight ok? I'll be fine as long as you are." Sicheng holds him tightly until he feels his eyelids flutter, he then rolls off and sleeps on his back. Yuta chuckles at the cute way he sleeps and watches for a while.
His mind is too busy to rest, he goes over his roller coaster of emotions throughout the day as he lays on his side staring at the boy who's sleeping soundly next to him.
First it was concern, which was the whole reason he went to Sicheng's in the first place. His phone kept going to voicemail and he wanted to as usual check in and make sure he was fine. He hadn't planned to even stop in that day because he had a few meetings and then of course he had to go to the club. He rescheduled everything and decided to check for himself.
Secondly the pull, the magnetic way he was drawn to Sicheng. Never before has he ever felt that strong of a desire with anyone else, and frankly it scares him to death. He doesn't know what came over him but this drive to take Sicheng and do unholy things to his body was overwhelming.
Third would be sadness for Sicheng and whatever his reason for stopping them. He's not upset in the slightest that they stopped although it did take a little while to calm junior down. He feels that above all he wants to and will protect Sicheng no matter what it takes.
Lastly he's curious as to what Sicheng is hiding from him and has been struggling not to lift up his shirt and check. He quietly gets out of bed and walks to the window. He stares at the sliver of the moon in the sky.
With his mind wrestling with what the right thing to do and the curiosity he feels, he walks cautiously to his phone turning on the flashlight. He goes to Sicheng's side of the bed and grabs the hem of his shirt, still contemplating his decision. He knows this is personal and something Sicheng should show him on his own but he can't resist.
Bending over him he silently lifts his shirt, he doesn't have to go far to see exactly what Sicheng was hiding. He drops to his knees with a gasp as the tears start running down his face.
Sicheng is a heavy sleeper but when he feels wet kisses on his tummy it startles him awake. He scrambles and tries to cover himself but Yuta holds his hands in his own and continues where he left off.
Sicheng is trying to figure out just what is going on but before he can even get angry about it Yuta stops, looks into his eyes with his own red and swollen ones.
"You are perfect. You have to see that, you are beautiful in so many ways. This. This is something you should be proud of." Sicheng scoffs and looks away.
"What are you talking about? Can't you see I'm ugly, my scars are disgusting. You think this is it? You're so wrong." He quickly gets out of Yuta's hold, leaving him still on his knees with his head down. After taking all of his clothes off he stands in front of Yuta.
"This is me all right? I'm not beautiful, I'll never be desirable. Thanks to my parents I'll always be the disgusting faggot they marked me to be."
Yuta looks him over, tears coming even harder now as he sees the damage caused by years of torture to this innocent boy. He rises up just enough to to be eye level with his tummy and pulls him close.
"Don't you see? This is beautiful because it's you. These scars tell me how brave you were for enduring. How strong you are for overcoming. For leaving and making something of your self. These scars tell me exactly who you are and the only thing I feel differently about is how much I hate your parents for what they did to you. Not because it's ugly, because they hurt you, precious you and stole your innocence. If they were ever to appear in front of me I would kill them in an instant. I would do that for you without hesitation." He stops only to take a short breath.
"Please, please hear me when I say you are the most beautiful person." He begins kissing his scars again while Sicheng wipes his tears. He watches Yuta while he covers every inch of him in soft sweet kisses. Yuta only stops when Sicheng laughs.
"What exactly is so funny?" Sicheng grabs his face, wiping the tears and snot with his thumbs as he leans in to kiss him.
"I'm not really sure but I think it's because you make me happier than I've ever been and I'm not sure that I deserve it." Yuta stands now, holds Sicheng's hands and looks him straight in the eyes.
"You deserve nothing less than the world. You inspire me like I've never thought possible." He leans in again and softly kisses his lips to which the other responds right away. Yuta then gently lays him down and hovers over him.
"Please tell me if I go too far, if you want me to stop." Sicheng nods, keeping his eyes locked with the others until Yuta starts his gentle assault of kisses on his body. He's nervous of course that at any second Yuta will see something that he'll think is ugly but he's trying really hard to believe in what he said too. In the short few weeks he's known the latter he's been nothing but sweet and caring so he thinks he can believe him.
Yuta rolls him onto his tummy and starts kissing him slowly from his hairline to his lower back before softly massaging his cheeks with his needy hands . His touch remains soft and slow but still full of need and want. He now kisses the curve of flesh in his hands earning a whimper from boy above him. He positions himself between his legs, slowly spreads his cheeks waiting for any sign to stop but gets none as he softly pokes his tongue in and around Sicheng's waiting hole. The other can't help the sinful moan that escapes him as his hips rise off the bed. Yuta doesn't force him down but holds him gently in place keeping himself planted there.
When Sicheng can't take it anymore he puts a stop to it and rolls onto his back panting for air, and when he can breathe again he pulls Yuta up for a heated kiss while ripping at his clothes.
"Take this off now." He desperately says having a burning desire to feel Yuta's skin on his own. Yuta complies and lowers himself on top again and resumes kissing him, grinding their erections together at a fast pace. He grabs the lube from his side table and coats his fingers never once taking his attention away from the precious boy beneath him. When he slides his first finger in its enough to make the other jolt in surprise but he relaxes soon enough to accept more and when he's grinding down onto Yuta's fingers it's taken as a sign that he's ready for more.
After rolling the condom into place he aligns himself with Sicheng, he stares into his eyes the entire time he starts his ascent into the warmth that will soon envelope his whole being.
The further he slides in the harder his heart pounds, his whole body is hot and he's sure it's not from a fever. As he watches the faces Sicheng makes as he slowly enters he feels his heart swell. How could it not, this boy is even more beautiful like this. He's never had a sexual partner that has made him feel such warmth and love. After thinking that word his head starts to feel dizzy, he's scared because he never thought he could feel these feelings for anyone, but he pushes those thoughts away and continues his slow pace until the need from both of them become too much.
"Oh Yuta, faster, faster oh god." Sicheng mumbles, and of course Yuta obliges. Their sweaty bodies are moving at a fast but rhythmic pace. Becoming one with each thrust. When Yuta senses Sicheng's finish approaching he leans in and kisses him slow until Sicheng breaks the kiss to scream out his name. Yuta comes shortly after chanting the others name like a mantra.
After catching their breath snuggled together Sicheng starts to get up to wash but Yuta holds him in place.
"What? I want to wash up." Yuta just holds him around the waist smiling into his chest.
"I just want to tell you something." He pauses leaving Sicheng to wonder. With a little hesitation he says what's on his mind.
"I know what you meant earlier when I asked you if you were a virgin." Sicheng started to squirm a little.
"Just settle down, will you?
I just want to say that I am not planning to ask you any details and that if you ever feel pressured in any way because of me, just tell me to stop." Sicheng could hear the sincerity in his voice and it made him melt.
"Thank you." He didn't really have the words to express exactly what Yuta makes him feel so he kept it as simple as he could. Yuta is the first person other than his parents to ever see all of his scars, he's never even shown them to Renjun.
Sicheng left the room, still naked from head to toe while Yuta just laid there with a lazy grin on his face. He never thought he could be this happy after sex, he's usually just thrown the person out but this time he wants to keep him close. He's honestly scared that Sicheng will come out of that bathroom a totally different person and want to leave and never come back.
When Sicheng walks out, he's so nervous while Yuta eyes him up and down. He starts to search for his clothing which immediately sends Yuta into over drive.
"Hey, where are you going? Please stay with me tonight?" Sicheng laughs as he throws on his shirt.
"I plan to, I just want something on." Yuta sighs in relief and opens his arms until Sicheng crawls into them and snuggles into his chest.
"Good night Yuta." He just kisses his head and whispers good night. Neither one knows what tomorrow will bring and for now neither one cares.

Hope you like this one, sorry if it was too cringy.