The scars on our hearts (Yuwin)

I cant live without you

After weeks of rehab and Sicheng staying by his side the whole time, he finally got to leave the hospital behind for good. Yuta couldn't be happier, especially because Sicheng agreed to move in with him. Of course he got to lay on the couch and watch everything because Sicheng wouldn't let him lift a finger. He didn't really mind though.
After he got most of his stuff situated Sicheng ordered dinner and decided to shower while they wait. He walked into his new room that he will be sharing with Yuta and sighed happily. He finally feels like his life is going in a direction and at a pace that is just right for him.
He walks into the en-suite bathroom taking his clothes off, feeling pretty gross after sweating all day but When the water runs over his head cascading down his body it feels like heaven.
"You're beautiful you know that?" He's startled at first but Yuta always has a way of bringing him comfort with his words. He doesn't respond, he doesn't know how to. Yuta steps
In with him, kissing his shoulder gently.
"I've missed you so much Yuta." The smaller says with a tremble in his voice.
"Me too baby, I love you so much." He says as he continues to kiss all over Sicheng's neck and back.
"The food is coming, we shouldn't." He is silenced by Yuta's tongue slipping between his lips.
"Don't worry we can get more, right now I need you." When Sicheng sees the seriousness in the others eyes his knees start to buckle, he needs him too, probably more. He still winces a little when he sees Yuta staring at his scar covered body but just as much as before his trust in Yuta has come back full force.
He feels Yuta's hands that he's missed so much touching him in the most loving way. He tries to take control, but Yuta will have none of that.
"You've taken such good care of me, let me take care of you tonight." He says kissing his neck softly. Sicheng can only nod as tears fall down his face, he's not sad but relieved. He's missed this so much and even though they had just a taste of each other before their falling out it feels like they were together forever.
After gently washing Sicheng so he feels comfortable Yuta guides him to the bedroom to treat him the way he should be treated.
"Are you sure you're up for this?" Sicheng asks worried.
"Baby I knew you would ask that so I specifically asked the doctor to give me a note for you so you would believe me." Sicheng laughs and slaps his chest.
"Why do I love a dork like you?" Sicheng asks while Yuta starts cackling.
"God I love you." He says still smiling wide right before his face goes completely serious and he proceeds to make love to Sicheng like he never has before.
If you asked Sicheng before if sex could change the way you feel for someone he would have said no. His past experiences have taught him to disassociate the two but after tonight he feels a deeper connection to Yuta and a bond that for him, could never be broken.

"Baby, did you really stay with me the whole time in the hospital?" Yuta asks as he lazily strokes Sicheng's bare back as they lay tangled together, skin to skin.
Sicheng nods, his fingers tracing patterns on Yuta's chest.
"It wasn't a hard thing to do most days, I love you and I wanted to be there when you woke up. I didn't want you to be scared.
Most days I was scared you would never wake up, then there were a few days when." He sniffles, his voice trembling as he voices his darker thoughts that he suffered through alone.
"Some days I was scared that you would wake up." Yuta can't help the look of hurt and confusion on his face but he listens to all that Sicheng has to say.
"I told myself that you deserved better, that as soon as you woke up I was going to leave because I don't deserve you. You were, are amazing. You did this heroic thing and saved so many people including our friend Ten and I doubted you? I thought you were this terrible person when all along it was me." He tries to get up, because just rethinking all of this does something to his psyche. Yuta does not let go, he will not ever let go.
"Sicheng, I promise you this. If you ever leave me like that, I will hunt you down and shower you with kisses and tell you why I can't live without you. I'll tell you that you've become so deeply woven into my life that I would die without you. You deserve the world, Baby and if anyone doesn't deserve someone it's me. You are beautiful, smart, funny, and the most thoughtful person I know. You are amazing, you've come so far and I'm so proud of you. You know, as soon as I met you I knew you were special. Even when I tried to deny it, I still knew that I was head over heals."
Sicheng wipes his eyes and kisses his lover on the lips.
"We never did eat, are you hungry?" Yuta asks as he makes another swipe across Sicheng's bottom with his wandering hands.
"Let's just sleep."  Yuta pecks his lips.
"Of course baby, but tomorrow I'm going to make you a big breakfast." Sicheng smiles brightly.
"I suppose I will let you." He giggles when Yuta tickles him.

When Sicheng finally drifts off to sleep he's at peace with the man he loves and is glad he didn't decide to leave. His self esteem still tries to fight him at times but he's ok.
Yuta on the other hand can't sleep. He can only stare at the person next to him and wonder how he got so lucky to meet such an amazing person. He wishes he could make him understand just how perfect he is, and maybe someday he will but for now he's content just to tell him any chance he gets. He gently peppers his sleeping face with kisses. His heart swells as he watches him sleep, knowing he gets to do this every day.

End.

There will be an epilogue coming soon but this is the end. I hope everyone who read this, enjoyed it. I will now be focusing on a jaeyong that I started a while ago and a secret little Markhyuk that I haven't published yet. Please check them out, stay safe, love everyone and be kind. Let's make the world a better place. Black lives matter.