The scars on our hearts (Yuwin)

Really it was enough

Waking up the next morning Renjun found himself still wrapped around his sad giant. He's been trying to distance himself from him for Sicheng's sake but it's been torture, he even had to go to a session by himself. Which it wasn't until after that he wished he had Johnny there to hold him. He has no idea why Johnny came to him this way last night but he hopes it helped him with whatever had him down. He stirs a little trying to wiggle out of his hold but Johnny wasn't having it.
"Don't go, not yet please?" He pleaded. Renjun kisses his cheek which made his eyes open immediately.
"I really have to pee, then I'll come back ok?" Johnny looks at him sadly.
"That's ok, I should be going anyway. I'm sorry for burdening you." He lets Renjun free so he slowly stands.
"You're not a burden Johnny, I'm happy to help." Johnny smiles as he stands and hugs him again.
"Thank you, but I better go before Sicheng sees me." He lets go as Renjun tries to protest.
"But..." Johnny places his finger on Renjun's lips.
"Shh no, really it was enough. Bye." He quietly slips out leaving a crying Renjun behind.
Johnny was taking things at a slow pace for his sake, so he could be sure of what he wants and he's messing it all up but he still has to be loyal to his brother even though it's killing him.

Yuta arrived at the club earlier than usual so he could check on the two locked away in his office.
It's quiet when he gets there so he slips in quickly and goes to his apartment door and quietly knocks before just opening the door. Taeyong is holding a sleeping Ten in his arms and they both look peaceful for the most part so he shuts the door and goes to check things on the floor. He stares at the bar where his precious love works, he's glad no one is here yet because he couldn't even mask the pain at the moment. He thinks back to what Sicheng saw yesterday and the things he hoped he didn't see, he feels himself breaking every second so he just walks away and tries to focus on the task at hand yet again.
Sleep is a foreign thing to him these days and it's starting to show. He busies himself with some extra cleaning then heads up to his office to do some paperwork, he knows he will have to put on the act again tonight so he has to get done what he can now.

(The night before)
Taeyong sits on the floor by the door watching Ten slip in and out of consciousness and it rips at his heart. He questions everything, why he left? How long was he ok before they took him? How bad did they hurt him? What could he have done differently to keep Ten with him? Will he be happy to see him or angry? Was he lying when he said he loved him in that letter or was it just to make him feel better? He also thought about his poor friends and what they are going through and how horrible Yuta must feel. He wallowed in all this self doubt and mental torture as he sat back watching the person he loves suffering. He dozed off for a few minutes but any time the other made a sound or creaked the bed his eyes would quickly open. Finally at around eight am Ten speaks for the first time with a scratchy voice.
"Help me, help me please?" It comes out as more of a whisper but Taeyong hears it. He quickly jumps to his side startling Ten a bit. When Ten focuses on his face silent tears roll down that Taeyong is quick to wipe away with his thumbs.
"I got you now baby, I'm not letting those monsters have you again." Despite all of his doubts and fears he reaches out and pulls Ten into him and holds him while the other lets out a sob.
After giving Ten a drink of water he crawls up on the bed and holds him, the whole time nothing is spoken, it doesn't have to be. Ten is finally back home in Taeyong's arms and both couldn't be happier about that.
When Taeyong finally wakes after finally getting a peaceful sleep he kisses his sleeping beauty and gets up to relieve himself. He quietly slips out of the apartment door to see Yuta sleeping at his desk. He walks over and taps the wood to get his attention.
"Yuta?" Taeyong could almost laugh at the comical way Yuta pops up but he still doesn't have it in him, not until he knows Ten is truly safe from harm and healthy.
"Oh hey Taeyong, hows Ten?" Yuta asks rubbing the sleep from his eyes.
"He seems to have come down from the drugs sometime this morning but he's been sleeping since." Yuta nods.
"Jaehyun is planning to come by with some supplies to run some blood tests on Ten and check him over again and I called Johnny to bring us all some breakfast." Taeyong nods and sits in the chair in front of the desk.
"I can't thank you enough for saving him, calling me, just everything. I can't even imagine what you are going through right now." Yuta chuckles bitterly.
"It's hell, every day I hurt him more and there is nothing I can do about it." Taeyong reaches up and pats Yuta on the hand that's tensely laying on top of the desk.
"Is he doing ok? Is he eating still? I'm so worried. Does he hate me?" He questions, the last part whispered.
"Of course he doesn't hate you, he's hurt and angry and anyone would be in that situation but I can see he still loves you. I wish you could just tell him like you told me." Yuta shakes his head.
"This here, keeping Ten, telling you everything? That all is a risk to the investigation and in order to find all the people he has taken and held in his "warehouse" we need this to go well. The less people to know the better." Taeyong nods in understanding.
"I'm Going back in so he doesn't wake up alone."

Johnny walks in a few minutes later with breakfast and doctor Jae right behind.
" how are you holding up?" Johnny asks.
"I'm here aren't I?" Yuta says while resting his head on his desk again.
"Alright let's eat and get Ten taken care of so we can get the doc out of here before they come back. Yuta nods and stands acknowledging Jae's presence.
"Hi Jae." He says holding his hand out to shake.
"Good morning Yuta, how is our patient?" He asks as he gets his supplies in order.
"He's sleeping still I think but he woke up from his trance some time this morning." Jae just hums as he keeps working.
"That's good, I was worried just how many drugs they had him on." He knocks then enters the apartment leaving Johnny and Yuta alone to eat their breakfast.
"How are you holding up?" Yuta Asks Johnny as he bites down on a piece of bacon.
"Honestly after seeing Ten like that I was done for mentally but I went to see Renjun last night and I feel a hundred percent better." Yuta tries not to seem jealous of them as he smiles as much as he can at Johnny.
"Another day closer to the end right?" Yuta says trying to act happy but Johnny of course sees right through him but won't say anything. He knows Yuta won't want to keep talking about it, so he'll wait until he comes to him.