The scars on our hearts (Yuwin)

An overwhelming fear

Sicheng opened his eyes feeling fingers running through his hair. The knocking at the door is what made him stir in the first place but the loving touch of Yuta is what makes him want to fall asleep again. He groggily looks up to him from his spot on Yuta's chest.
"Good evening sunshine." Sicheng's eyes pop open.
"Have I really been sleeping that long?" He starts to try to get up only to be pulled back into Yuta's embrace.
"You aren't going anywhere." He says as the door opens and the whole gang walks in.
"Sorry, I wanted to give you more time alone but they couldn't wait to see you." Yuta just nods, his throat is much better but still a little scratchy so he's taking it as easy as possible.
He looks around the room as tears start to well up in his eyes.
"Thank you for coming." He says quietly.
The first one to come up to him is Renjun, he hugs him gently while also including his brother who's still lying there.
"Welcome back, and thank you for all you've done." Yuta smiles though a little unsure about why Renjun would thank him but he just goes with it.
Taeyong and Ten are the next to come up, both a little tearful remembering the day that landed him here in the first place.
"I, we can never thank you enough for the sacrifices you've made. If it wasn't for you I don't know what ever would have become of Ten." Taeyong says then looks at Sicheng.
"And you, Sicheng you had to sacrifice a lot as well. I don't know how the cards would have fallen but if it wasn't for all of that sacrifice made by you two I probably would have never seen him again." He looks away wiping his eyes trying to hold back the flood. Yuta reaches over grabbing his hand and squeezes.
"I hated hurting Sicheng, and every minute of every day I wanted to quit and run into his arms and beg his forgiveness but knowing what I know now I would do it again." He let's go of Taeyong and takes Ten's hand in his.
" when all that started, None of us knew you would be there and I'd save your ass again but please don't leave him again though." He smiles at Taeyong and looks back to Ten smirking.
"He's a mess without you." At this everyone but him and Sicheng are laughing. He looks around arching his brow.
"You should talk." Johnny says playfully.
"We all know who the biggest mess was in this whole situation." Yuta looks at Sicheng sadly.
"Psh, not him." Johnny says laughing again.
"It was you, you idiot. Breaking shit in your apartment, drinking 24/7 and not eating. Trust me it was you." Sicheng gasps when he heard this while Yuta gave him an embarrassed look and mouthed an I'm sorry. Johnny senses the tension he created and quickly finishes his story.
"This guy was amazing, yeah he was sad and fucking terrified that you weren't going to wake up but he wasn't a mess. He knew what he was doing and took care of you better than the nurses." Sicheng looked away embarrassed by the compliment.
"He bathed you and basically took care of any little detail he could think of, I mean he saved your life even. We almost lost you one night if it hadn't of been for him." Yuta looks astonished and completely love struck at Sicheng who's still not very fond of the compliment or the attention.
Yuta squeezes him closer and kisses his head.
"Thank you baby." He whispers to which Sicheng just nods, smiling shyly.
After Johnny went into detail about that night another person wanted a chance to talk. Mark timidly walks closer, he knows that Yuta was mad at him about the whole boyfriend thing and he's not sure if he blames him for getting shot or not.
"Hi, Yuta. I heard you were awake and I wanted to see it for myself, and also thank you for everything. With the efforts you made we managed to save 87 people along with Ten. You truly are a hero and I'm sorry I didn't do more." He is cut off by Yuta holding up his hand. It really hasn't even registered yet how much he has truly done, he's more concerned about everyone else.
"Mark, come here." He walks up slowly and Yuta grabs his arm and pulls him into a warm embrace.
"You must have carried a lot on your shoulders through this, and I'm sorry for that." Mark is quietly sobbing on his shoulder now.
"You did what you had to do, what you could do and you are not to blame for any of this. Yes I was mad that Sicheng was hurt and I'd still like to take that day back but what's done is done, it's not your fault at all that this happened to me I voluntarily went with him. So please release it, no guilt, shame or self blame allowed, got it?" Mark chuckles through his tears and nods.
"Thank you." He whispers. Yuta smiles and squeezes him tighter, by now the whole room is crying. Even though Johnny apologized for the way he treated Mark he feels even more guilty now. As Yuta finally let's Mark go he looks up to see a stranger crying in the corner and gestures that way with his head.
"Is that?" He looks at Mark, waiting conformation.
"Yeah yeah." He says while wiping his tears.
"Oh so you are the one huh? Come here I want to meet you formally. Haechan?" He asks, holding his hand out. Haechan puts his hand out but decides a hug is more in order.
"I'm sorry Mr. Nakamoto but I'm a hugger." He stands back up and looks softly at him lying in the bed.
"So I've made friends with everyone here so just to let you know you and I are friends as well." He smiles cutely and every one chuckles, Yuta couldn't wipe the fond smile off his face if he tried.
"Mark! You said he was a cutie but come on this is too much." Haechan blushed while Mark proudly held his hand.
"Thank you for what you said though. Mark has been torturing himself, he needed to hear it from you." Yuta nods and smiles at him.
"Ok I think we need to lighten up the atmosphere some we need to celebrate but of course we will save that for another time." Johnny says laughing.
"But it's my understanding that Taeyong cooked us another delicious meal to eat together." He looks at Taeyong who nods excitedly and pulls about six containers from his cooler and a bunch of paper plates.
"Taeyong has been feeding us well, you've missed a lot. He's made food for me everyday." Sicheng says quietly. Yuta smiles at him but can't seem to look away, his face showing all his love with a mixture of deep regret as he stares at his beautiful lover. His eyes start to well up a bit before Sicheng kisses his cheek.
"It's ok, Yuta. We will talk later when everyone leaves ok? Don't worry ok? Everything is going to be ok." He smiles confidently at Yuta and this time kisses him slow and soft on the lips. Yuta nods and holds him tighter, he's feeling an overwhelming fear and he's not really sure where it's coming from but he wants to hold onto Sicheng even tighter.
After finally breaking away they shared a meal and a lot of laughs with their friends.

So my concert was canceled, as I expected and I'm super sad but I'm trying to put it into perspective. Others are losing loved ones so I can handle not getting to see them even though I want to 😭. Love you all hope you're healthy and happy and the next chapter will probably be even more soft and mushy than this one. Thank you for reading!