This Kind of Love

23. He Knows

Siren's POV

The first time Ieuhence told me about fallen angels was when he explained the different kinds of angels. Fallen angels and souls daw ang tawag doon sa mga entity na nag turn nang maling direksyon. I feel worried about him. Dahil ba sa akin kaya siya meron niyan? What happens when you become a fallen angel?

Nakatunganga lang ako sa kanya sa sobrang shock. Binuka ko yung bibig ko and for a moment, walang lumabas na sound. When I finally got something out, medyo na nginginig pa yung boses ko. Hinawakan ko yung likod niya.

"P-paano k-ko sila aalisin sa likod mo? A-anong dapat gawin?"

I'm panicking. I don't want anything bad to happen to him nang dahil sa akin. I wouldn't be able to live my life with that knowledge in my head.

Nung humarap si Ieuhence sa akin, kinuha niya yung dalawang kamay ko at hinawakan niya yun.

"Siren, it's okay. Kaya ko 'to. I'll find out about it and I'll fix it. Just don't worry about me. I don't want anyone worrying about me, especially you. You're bearing our child, Siren. Please don't stress yourself out."

"P-pero...paano kung maging katulad ka nila?"

"I won't be. Kakausapin ko yung archangel ko. I'll find out about it." He cupped both my cheeks.

"Don't think about it. This is why I don't want to tell you. I don't want you to get stressed and worried."

Kahit na anong pag papakalma niya sa akin, hindi ko maalis sa isip ko kung ano yung sinabi niya. If he becomes a fallen angel, hindi ko mapapatawad ang sarili ko.

Nag switch uli si Ieuhence into his human form. Nawala na yung dark markings sa likod niya. Kinuha na niya yung button-up shirt niya at isinuot uli yun.

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As the days are passing by as well, lalong lumalaki yung marks sa likod ni Ieuhence. Nagiging worried na rin ako sa kanya dahil hindi ko alam kung paano papatigilin yun. His screams were also louder. Screams like he was in serious pain.

"Ieuhence! Ieuhence! May sakit ka ba? Ieuhence!" He's laying on the floor and he's sweating. Cold sweats.

How do you take care of a sick angel in human form? Like a human? Parehas lang ba yun?

"W-wala akong sakit..." He managed to say bago siya nag simulang sumigaw ulit. I gathered him in my arms at niyakap ko siya.

Hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko.

"Tatawag ba ako nang ambulansiya? Dadalhin na ba kita sa hospital?" Nag papanic na ako.

"Tell me what to do." I feel like crying. Hindi ko ma pigilan na umiyak habang niyayakap ko si Ieuehence. Seeing him like this is like torture to me.

Narinig niya siguro yung sinasabi ko dahil sinubukan niyang humawak sa pisngi ko. Tumayo siya at sinandal niya yung likod niya doon sa gilid ng kama.

"Don't do that. Nothing in this world can fix...this." Narinig kong sinabi niya.

"'This?' What's 'this'? Tell me."

Hindi niya ako sinagot. Kinuha lang niya yung kamay ko at nilagay niya sa dibdib niya.

"I can feel you here..." he told me, "Your emotions are very strong right now."