This Kind of Love

15. First Kiss

Siren's POV

Wala akong ganang bumangon sa kama ko after what happened last night. I looked at my side to found no one. I looked around pero may namumuo na namang luha sa mga mata ko. How can I not be teary eyed eh bawat sulok ng kwartong ito has a lot of memories with him.

As much as I wanted to stay in bed, I have lot of works to do. Maybe I could use some distractions for a moment para mawala sa isip ko yung mga nangyari kahapon.

I'm currently working on my codes for a particular website when someone knocked at my door.

"Nyx." Grandma called.

"Grandma?" I said as soon as she opened the door behind me.

She looked at me and hugged me as if she knew what happened. She sat beside me and asked, "So, you confessed already?"

"Half of it" I answered. Her face is looking for a detailed answer. "Grandma, ano pa ba ang magagawa ko? I just feel like I need to do it, ayaw ko na kasing lokohin ang sarili ko sa nararamdaman ko."

She smiled. A genuine one which touched my heart. "Angels can love, Nyx but I don't know about the part of 'falling in love'. He loves you and you know that but not the kind of love like what you're feeling right now towards him."

Grandma has a point. I know, it's almost explicit. But hearing those words all over again, ang sakit-sakit.

"Is that even a sin, to love someone? Akala ko po ba na there's no boundaries in love? Ang gulo po." I sighed.

"Nyx, hindi ko alam kung kasalanan ba sa kanila yun. I just don't think he's capable." She said and hold my hand.

He's not capable? Oh come on! Everyone is capable to do so. I just don't get it kung bakit bawal.

"Look, I'll explain this to you in terms of your course." She said and smiled. "Sa tingin ko, he's not programmed to love a mortal. Just like us, we're not supposed to see them. On your case young lady, you are not programmed to fall in love with him." She explained.

I felt really down upon hearing those words, my Grandma has a point though. In theory, maybe he's really not meant to fall in love. Bakit sila walang ganun? I mean, how can they distinguish the difference of love from being in love? Pero ano pa bang magagawa ko? I know he's my Angel but I'm a human with feelings towards him. How in this world will that be possible? It's worse than a Romeo and Juliet romance, at least both of them are mortals, pwede sila if you'll just remove the odds of their rivaling families. But ours? Odds can't be remove, it's their rule.

Naalala ko yung secret nila Lola at Ieuhence. I wondered kung ano iyon. "Grandma, remember when you first confess that you can see Ieuhence?"

"Yeah. What about it, Apo?" she looked me.

"Ano po ba yung secret ninyo?" I said, might as well know about it diba?

Grandma looked at me as if she's trying to weigh things out. Curiosity strikes me.

"I don't think I should tell you that, Apo." She replied.

"Sige na po, Lola. I think, I deserve to know it as well." I pleaded.

"Fine. A few days before you start seeing him, he's always following you around. Yung time na you tripped off your shoe lace at nadapa ka? That's where the secret comes in." She paused for a while at parang nagda-day dream. "Nasa ilalim mo siya noon as if he's trying to ease the pain para hindi ka gaanong masaktan sa pagkakadapa mo."

"And then?" I curiously asked. Pa-thrill pa kasi ito si Lola, eh.

"Your lips met his. You kissed." She smiled teasingly after she said that.