Chasing Grant

Chapter 27 ~Terrors

A/N I haven't been really working on this story much and there's no excuse besides me just not being too motivated with anything in life anymore, I'm just worn out. Don't be a silent reader comment your thoughts.

Chapter 27 ~Terrors

When thinking about life, remember this: no amount of guilt can change the past and no amount of anxiety can change the future. ~Unknown

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Grant's POV

"Yeah and we'll spend the rest of eternity together, right Felix?" I turned around but was greeted with nothing...no one.

"F-Felix?" I called aloud to the open field.

For as far as I could see there was nothing but a flat land.

An open field that extended forever. The sun was beating down but I was cold . And there was nothing but a clear sky, empty of any clouds or birds, to greet me.

'Where'd he go? He was right next to me a second ago....right here in my grasp...' I looked at my palms and stared.

Suddenly the anxiety, fear, sank in and my hands shook uncontrollably without explanation. My throat tightened with dread and I couldn't make my thoughts clear.

"Felix!?" I called frantically, finally deciding to dash off in a random direction.

I couldn't tell if I was actually going anywhere though, because the scenery all looked the same.

"Where are you?" I called as I pushed myself to run a little faster "P-Please" my voice cracked, and suddenly I tripped.

I made an 'oof' noise when I hit the ground, and when I looked up my anxiety rose.

"W-What? I was just in a field" I looked to my left and right, sure enough I was surrounded by a woodsy scenery.

In fact these woods were similar to the ones leading the lake and tree-house.

I felt myself calm down with the sense of familiarity sinking in, but not too much because I was still completely...alone.

I stood and dusted myself off before turning around to take a step.

The scene in front of me made me freeze up.

"B-Blood!?" I gasped, there were pieces of torn fabric as well.

I took a step forward and the silence of the surrounding woods weighed on me. Not a sound of running water or animals to be heard.

Though the silence was fitting for what I saw following the fresh trail of blood.

There laid the lifeless body of the most beloved person in my life.

In a sharp voice that I couldn't even recognize as my own I screamed in desperation and anguish.

FELIX!!!

I woke with a start and darted my left had out as I wildly searched for Felix's body besides mine. Despite feeling his warmth nearby I needed physical confirmation of his presence beside me.

"Grant, are you okay? What time is it?" he asked me in a bit of a sleepy daze after I, not so gently, smacked him awake due to my wild search.

He offered his hand to which I gripped tightly "I'm fine, it was just a nightmare" I responded.

"You're shaking" he pointed out. "Do you want to talk about it?" he offered.

"No, I'm fine" I snuggled closer to him and he pulled me in until I was flushed against his bare chest.

Now typically I enjoyed being the "big spoon" but this time I settled with being the small one.

Listening to his steady heart beat helped calm my nerves.

"Are you ready for tomorrow" I asked in an attempt to change the topic and get my mind off my dream.

And I was relieved that he didn't pry into the whole nightmare thing. I don't know how I would even begin to explain.

"I mean I'm not scared or anything if that's what you want to know. What is she going to do. Reject me? Cause she's done that already. Though I do hope she's willing to talk" he answered.

I stayed quiet with a lack of something to say before I finally said "Sorry for waking you"

"Don't apologize for that I'm glad you woke me. I wouldn't want you dealing with it alone when you have me" he placed a gentle kiss to my forehead.

In turn I snuggled my face deeper into his chest and placed a kiss over his beating heart "Thank you" I whispered.

I heard his breathing even out as he fell back asleep but I couldn't get myself to sleep. 

The dream felt too real to me and my head couldn't focus.

Felix will always be there for me. I shouldn't worry about a dream that won't ever come true, because he'll always be here. Right?

...Right?

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I never fell back asleep after the dream last night. It just kept playing back in my head like a broken record. I was never one to have nightmares and I've never experienced something that real. I felt utterly helpless and...

Trapped

Seeing his lifeless body on the floor all battered and bruised. What happened to him? And why couldn't I help him? Why could I get there sooner? 

What was most uncanny was that it was in a place familiar to me. A place that brought comfort to me, but after seeing that it brought me back to when my mom got-

"Afterwards we can just tour around maybe go to the beach or something- are you even listening?" 

I jumped back into reality and picked up my fork "Yeah, sounds good" I answered while picking at my food. 

"Are you sure your okay? Is this about the dream? You can stay here at the hotel and I'll just go meet her if you need to rest" he suggested. 

"No!" I blurted before glancing down at my plate. "I'm sorry, everything is fine..." I mumbled.

His eyebrows furrowed as his eyes displayed the concern he felt.

Those emerald eyes full of light and life.....

I gave him a tight smile and tried my hardest to be supportive. 

It's just a dream and it shouldn't be affecting me this much. I can't let it get in the way today, after all it's a very important day for Felix, and I need to be his pillar of support. 

When the elevator door closed, which I didn't even notice us boarding the elevator in the first place, I pushed him up against the wall. 

I stood on my tippy toes and gave him a passionate kiss. 

"Grant- wha-" he tried to speak. 

"Confidence booster" I breathed out when I pulled away. 

"For you me or you" he laughed when I shrugged. 

I can do this. That stupid dream has nothing over me and I can get through this. 

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A/N That ending was kind of rushed and this chapter was kind of a filler. Also if you didn't notice I'm going to start using this "- -" for the section breaks and this "*****" for the beginning and end of a chapter. Well BYEE!!!