Don't you think I'm already pretty broken?(Werehog Sonadow) {finish}

Chapter 16

Shadow PoV :

It was morning already, Sonic and I already took breakfast. When I was cleaning the dishes, Sonic started to go out.
"-were are you going?
-I'm going to see Tails and Amy, do you want to come with me?
-... No, I don't really want to go out today...
-Shadow? Are you feeling okay?
-yes, it just that I got a bad feeling...
-are you sure you don't want to come with me?
-I'm completely sure, I don't want to make you be with me all the time, you need to see the others!
-... Alright, I'll be back in an little hour, if you need something you can call me, see you later Sweetheart! "
He kissed me and went out.

I was now alone but I hated it. Of course, I wanted to be with Sonic but he needed to talk with someone else. I'm not the only one who suffered of the rape. The image of Sonic crying on me when he found me came back in my head.
I didn't want to do anything today, even cooking, which was my hobby! I tried to do something but I get bored pretty fast or I didn't have the mood to do it...

The only thing I did was cleaning the house. After that I just laid down on the couch. I felt very weird, just like I lost all my joy of life. I felt empty...

Some minutes later, Sonic came back.
"-Sweetheart,I'm home!
-hey Sonikku...
-you look sad, what's wrong?
-nothing, just got bored...
He came closer to me.
-what do you mean by 'got bored'?
-I wasn't in the mood to do anything...
He looked at me with a suspicious expression.
-Shadow... How do you feel?
-... I don't know
-and now?
He started to tickle me but I didn't feel anything.
-I still have this feeling...
-and that
He went down to my neck and started to kiss it.
-... I-I still feel that weird feeling... Sonic what is that feeling? I don't like it... Even your love don't work on it... "

I cried, it was now normal for me since my rape but it's weird with that feeling, it's not fearness and helpless cry, it's... Emptyness cry... I didn't like it, it's looked like when I lost Maria, it's almost the same feeling...
Sonic took me in his arms, hugging me but that didn't made me feel better.
"-Sonic please, tell me what this is... Tell me what to do to stop it... I'm begging you...
-sshhhh, it's alright Shadow... Don't worry, we'll get you out of this feeling..."

It was scaring me, I felt weak and hopeless. Despair was on my back.
I didn't understand, I have wonderful friends, a great job, a good house, a perfect boyfriend... Why do I felt so miserable...?
"-p-please tell me... What is the n-name of this f-feeling...?"
He kissed all my face, it was like I had an horrible disease and he didn't want to tell me it... But his last word made me feel that I didn't exist anymore...

" -it... Depression... You are in depression Sweetheart..."