Don't you think I'm already pretty broken?(Werehog Sonadow) {finish}

Chapter 18

Shadow PoV :

"-I saw that you cried in the hospital... I heard you crying when you were with Mrs.Vanilla... And you were the one who panicked the most at Amy's store... You are suffering a lot because of me... You should go away from me..."
I get up and went to the door and opened it.
"-go now...
-no...
-Sonic please, don't make this more difficult...
-I am not living you Shadow
-just go Sonic..."
He was acting like a child who didn't get what he wanted.
He get up and walked. I was thinking that he would went out but he stopped in front of me.
"-look at me Shadow...
-go Sonic...
He took my chin in his hand and forced me to look at him.
-I'm just asking you to look at me... "

I stared at his emerald eyes, then I felt his hand in my left one, his other one on my cheek and put his forehead on mine. I didn't get why we were like that but I suddenly realized :
It was the same position we were when I told him my feelings.
"-if I could, I would go back to this moment and stay with you this night...
His words were beautiful but wrong. I know he's guilty because he thought that if he stayed with me, nothing would happened but it's my fault. I'm the one who followed him and get inside the forest...
-Sweetheart?
-yes...?
-can you kiss me like that day...?"
I chuckled a little. I took Sonic's head in my hands, went on my tiptoes, looked in his deep eyes again and kissed him with all my love and sweetness. He kissed back pretty fast, pinned me on the wall and closed the door next to us. I broke the kiss.
"-you should go now So-
-i'm not leaving...
-don't act like a child! You need to be away from me! It will be better for you!
-it would be better if I'm staying here. Not for me, for us. I know that feeling Shadow.
-what do you mean by 'knowing that feeling' ...?
He sat back on the couch.

"-come..."
He made me sat on his lap and I slipped my head between his neck and shoulder.
" it was after the battle at Soleanna, everything ended good. Soleanna was safe, the princess alived and Solaris was gone. My normal life came back after that. Then I started to feel bad and scared.
It was the first time that I imagined what would happen if I died.
I didn't know how the world would end if you and our friends weren't able to bring me to life after Mephiles killed me.
What if the world wasn't still the same when Iblis woke up?
Then I realized that the word were Silver is living is the world if I died and never saved Soleanna.
The illusions that Mephiles gave him about that I was the 'Iblis Trigger' wasn't a lie but the truth if I was still dead.
I started to imagine how you would 'live'. I was imagine the worst things. But you were the only one that couldn't imagine because you never showed me your feelings three years ago... But now, I realized that if this how it will happen, then I will accept this and never imagine other possibilities... "