Stigma {Kim Taehyung FF}✔

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Guys the story is ending soon :(

Taehyung finally figured out what the feeling in his stomach was. Anger. He realized after he got a phone call from you later that night.

Your voice was scratchy from crying, and he heard you sniffle a few times. You avoided the situation, and instead talked about what he had missed while he was gone.

Even though he was sitting there, drowning in anger he wouldn't be able to let out, he listened to your words, and responded to questions you asked. He could tell you were mature at the moment, and he was kind of thankful.

"I'm so happy you're out. That you don't have to worry about that anymore. I know it was hard for you." You explained, looking down and picking at your blanket.

You noticed something sounded off in his voice, but you were afraid to ask. You had a nagging feeling it had something to do with your breakdown earlier in the day, and you really didn't want to talk about it.

Your recovered memories were enough to make you not want to speak a word again, but you knew it wouldn't change anything. So you decided to talk about anything, other than that.

"I am too, but the stigma of having gone to jail will always be with me. I've been in prison twice now. I'm starting to see a trend."

You sighed, "There's no trend, Taehyung. And I wouldn't refer to your jail time as a stigma." He chuckled, "There was evidence of murder, that's why I was there, trust me it's a stigma."

You tsked,"No, i wouldn't call it evidence of murder. I'd call it....evidence of survival. You had to protect yourself and your siblings at all costs, and that's what you did."

Taehyung was silent for a moment, he felt his heart stutter in his chest. You always knew what to say to make him freeze up.

"Wow. I love you."

You snorted and laughed, "You can't just say that out of no where, I almost squealed." You paused and giggled, "But I love you too, I suppose."

Taehyung chuckled, "You suppose? Well I dont want to force you to love me, or like me even. I guess I'll just hang up and let you live your life without my loving shackles." He joked.

You giggled again, "No! Don't hang up! I want your loving shackles." You both laughed.

It was silent for a moment, before Taehyung spoke up again, "Y/N, we should really talk about it." You cursed silently and squeezed your eyes shut.

"I was going to just let it go, and give you time, but this is effecting me more than I thought it would. I'm angry for you, and I don't even fully know what happened. But I want to know. I want to know everything about you. That includes the hardships you've faced."

"I promise, I'll tell you soon, but I just can't right now. Plus, I don't remember everything, just bits a pieces. Scary pieces." It wasn't a lie, you were aware of the empty gaps between your memories, and the lack of information you held about your own situation.

You figured it would take some time before they all came back, if they did. You sighed heavily. "Its amazing what the mind can do. I had no idea about any of this until the proff was in front of me and forced it out."

Taehyung sympathized, "Remembering is hard, but you're strong, I'm sure you'll be able to use your experience to make yourself stronger." He confirmed, using your own 'can-do' attitude against you.

You bit your lip, "I don't know if I can, Tae. I just want to curl up in a ball in the corner and cry for the rest of my life. I feel like I'm so much weaker than I had originally thought."

"That's just for now, because it's so fresh in your mind. You're so much stronger than you think, Clumsy."

You giggle at the nickname, "Clumsy, huh? When did that even start?" You asked, you honestly couldn't remember. Taehyung chuckled, "Remember when you got into that cat fight with Sana? That was when I first realized you were pretty clumsy. After that it kind of just stuck."

You shook your head at the memory. "You know that fight was about Namjoon?" You recalled. Taehyung was silent for a moment, "Namjoon? Why Namjoon?"

You tilted your head at the familiar emotion in his voice. "She likes Namjoon. She didn't like the fact that I was around him. Taehyung are you jealous? Did you think it was because we both liked him?"

You giggled as he mumbled a maybe. "I never liked Namjoon in that way. I never liked any of the guys in that way. Only you. And if anything, I'd have a crush on Hoseok before Namjoon."

You paused, "Wait-" the line went dead, and you cursed, and tried to call him back.

After five minutes you got a text.

Hobi: Any particular reason Taehyung just texted me and told me to keep my gross hands of his clumsy?

You: Its a misunderstanding that I'm about to clear up, Sorry hobi!!

You sighed and switched to Taehyugns messages.

You: Don't make assumptions, silly. I don't like Hoseok like that. I was making an example. A bad one. I'm sorry Tae, you're the only one I love 💜💜

TaeTae:....Love u 2. Go 2 bed.

You:I will, sleep well. 💜

TaeTae: wow I love u
TaeTae: I mean..you too.