We stared at each other for a long time until I turned away from him. I wasn't sure what to say. I wasn't even sure what happened and was finding it hard to wrap my head around Redley's action. I hated how my pulse raced and I hated that I was trembling and thirsty but I was too embarrassed to do anything and just drowned in embarrassment.
"Goodness gracious, nalipasan yata ako ng gutom!" I loudly said, my voice too high-pitched for my liking.
Gusto kong lingunin si Red kasi gusto kong makita 'yung reaction n'ya. I wanted to gauge my sanity through his behavior. Pero, nakaramdam naman daw ako ng hiya at ayoko s'yang tingnan.
At bakit naman ako mahihiya? Kasi, paano kung sabihin n'yang imahinasyon ko lang 'yun? Eh, ano naman! Kasalanan ko bang hindi pa s'ya nagluluto kaya umakyat na 'yung ulcer ko sa utak?!
"Green...?" he quietly asked.
"Bakit?" I
"Wala..."
"Okay."
Syete.
Hindi s'ya affected. Not that I would ever admit that I was affected. But, I felt it was unfair that the horrendous awkwardness I felt was one-sided. And it wasn't even me who kissed him.
Walanghiya talaga 'tong kumag na 'to...
I was fuming. I was getting ready to give him a mouthful and a kick in the face for being such an uncaring maggot. How could you just kiss a girl and not apologize? I rolled onto my side to face him and found him staring intently at me.
Holy shit.
For the first time since I could learn to talk, I ran out of words. He continued to stare and I bit my lower lip because it started to tremble. My hands felt clammy and I felt cold as if someone doused me with a bucketful of icy water.
"Green..."
"Gutom na ako," I whispered.
"Ha?" His face registered surprise.
"Gutom na ako, pwede bang magluto ka na?"
"Gutom ka?" Obviously, it wasn't the reaction he expected and he sounded as perplexed as he looked.
"Kung ayaw mong magluto, kakain na lang ako sa labas."
"Hindi. Ako na. Ang dali-dali lang kayang magluto. Anong gusto mong kainin?"
"Kahit ano," I replied staring at the wall behind him. "Magsaing ka na, please..."
"Okay," he said before he got off the bed. "Tatawagin na lang kita kapag nakapagluto na ako. Magpahinga ka muna."
"Sige."
N'ung narinig kong sumara ang pinto ay parang n'un lang bumalik ang aking ulirat.
OH MY GOD, NAG-KISS KAMI NI RED!
Parang 'yung lahat ng kalahok ng University Athletic Association of the Philippines o UAAP cheerdance competition ay nabuhay sa loob ng utak ko at nagsisisigaw. At hindi dahil sa kilig. Hindi rin dahil sa galit. Kundi dahil hindi nila alam kung ano ba dapat ang maramdaman ko.
A part of my brain protested at the idea that my first kiss wasn't with someone I was in love with. Instead, it was with a guy whose life I nearly ended due to dump-driving or driving after being dumped.
"Diyos ko naman!" Gusto kong magwala sa inis. Paano kasi naunahan ako ng gulat at sa halip na magalit ay inutusan ko s'yang magsaing. "Ang tanga, tanga, tanga, tanga, tanga mo, Gianna!"
Bakit si Red pa sa dinami-dami ng tao sa Diliman? Okay, fine gwapo s'ya pero, hindi ko talaga s'ya type. Feeling ko ang weird n'ya kahit ang bait-bait pa n'ya. Saan ka ba naman kasi nakakita ng lalaking mahilig sa horoscope at iniaasa sa kachurvahan ng iba ang magiging kaganapan sa future n'ya? Maliban d'yan pure Chinese ang loko at ang alam ko lang na mga salitang Chinese ay Kung Hei Fat Choi.
