Fragmented

Reoccurrence

"Do you know I can't have it."

"What is it?"

She gave it a thought as if it hadn't  been on her mind all along, then spoke "God or Love."

He asked "Which do you want?"

She looked at him for a long time and just as he thought she wouldn't answer, a smile graced her lips. Though still sad.

"If I find love then whats stopping me from believing God is more near to me than I've ever thought. What will stop me from believing I have Him with me? Though how unfortunate, I can't have just one."

-SMR

Freya's POV:-

Turning the knob I opened the door slightly and peeked. He was right there. It occurred to me many times as to why the fuck was I doing this.

It was stupid.

I'm pretty sure I could've just stolen Annie's shirt and let her wear the camisole. She'd be happy to.This is ridiculous. Its just a revealing camisole I'm pretty sure most women would love the attention.

I would've too, if it were the green eyes I search for everywhere now.

Without thinking further, I opened the door fully and watched as his eyes raked over my body stopping momentarily at my breasts. Then my tummy.

Yeah the bump was getting bigger pretty sure I'm going to need bigger clothes. This is why I didn't wanna wear this.

I believe myself to be stupid and heedless to even put on the wife beater, it was also skin tight. What the fuck would I wear tomorrow when the sun will melt me when we trek.

He swallowed once then twice."Ummm......Mason." I whispered and his eyes immediately shot to mine something very dark pooling in them.

"Uhh yeah. Ye-Yeah. You look good. Really good. You look amazing." He stuttered his eyes trying to stay glued to mine.

I felt heat rise from my neck. Maybe I was too fat. I didn't think it would look so bad for him to keep staring at my tummy.

I backed away a little. Maybe I should just change back. "I...I think...I'm going to change back. Its fine." I tucked my stray hair behind my ear and turned while I still could.

Or maybe not...

Before I could move inside, his hand shot out and grabbed my wrist. "Freya you look so beautiful I can't put it to words."

I felt him move closer and goosebumps erupted as he whispered into my ear "Sinful thoughts are running through my mind right now."

My heart skyrocketed hearing him. My breath hitched as I stood there trying to calm but he made no move to let me go or move back.

"Oh my GOD! Freya! I didn't think it would look this sexy. I should pat myself." We both jumped apart hearing Annie's voice. She walked over as my back still faced Mason. "I told you. It would look great. Mason did you know she had never put this on before. Tell her she looks good." I think he already gave me a heart attack with what he said. Why was she making this more awkward.

I glared at her. "Annie ughh!! I'm going to put my jacket over this." I started walking inside and She pulled me back. "No you're not."

"Maryanne if she's not comfortable let her at least put her jacket on. Some people can't pull off some looks." I turned around watching his face and his evident smirk challenging me.

Alright if he was gonna play this game I wouldn't mind. "You know what Annie, let's go. So far I haven't had any fun on this trip."

I threw my jacket over to my bed and standing right there I looked over to the mirror in the bathroom. He stood behind me and watched smirking as I pulled out the red lipstick from my jeans pocket and put it on my lips. His eyes moved with every stroke of my lipstick, darkening to a very familiar shade but ignoring it I put the lipstick back and started walking stopping only to whisper to him.