Walk slowly (edited)

Chapter 20

Jackson lent me his t-shirt with a piece of pants as soon as we arrived at the single storey terrace house. His furniture in the house was so beautiful. It suited his title as interior designer.

Indeed, it is Jackson’s expertise. Yup, Jackson is an interior designer while I’m a draftsman and Jaebum is an Architect assistant.

I went straight to the bathroom, wetting my body to keep me fresh.

“Did you have a problem with your husband, Jinyoungie?” Jackson asked, probably not willing to continue to wait for me to open the story. Definitely, he waited too long for me to tell him everything.

“He doesn't love me, he loves another woman.” I said.

“What!” Jackson was surprised, with his eyes wide. “Who?”

“Jiyeon!” I complained to Jackson. “I’m not his choice. He can’t love me.”

“So?”

“I don’t know, Jackson. I don’t even know what else to do.” I said honestly.

“Then, you’re going to give up like that? He’s yours, Jinyoung. Your husband. You have to win his love.” Jackson tried.

The words that I could only look deserted. Win Mark’s love? I never managed to do that. Mark never loved me. Love cannot be forced. He just thinks of me as his little brother. Mark was only able to promise me that.

“It will not be successful. I’m not expecting anything right now. All I want, was for him to meet with Jiyeon as soon as possible. After that, all of this will be finished.” I replied weakly, avoiding Jackson eye. I fear that tears will begin flowing in front of him again.

“Don’t be silly, Jinyoung. You’re his wife. Please don’t give up. Maybe he doesn't love you now, but you can help him build that feeling.” Jakson said angrily.

“It’s too late, Jackson. I do not want him to love me on the basis of sympathy. I do not need his sympathy. If he loves Jiyeon, I’m willing for them to be together.”

“Are you crazy, Jinyoung? Why are you going to punish yourself like this? Why are you so kind, Jinyoung?” Jackson got up from his seat. He looked really angry.

“I’m not crazy, Jackson. I was not as good as you thought. I tried to look for Jiyeon, but in the meantime, I wish I’d never see her, so Mark has to stay with me!” I looked at Jackson sharply.

I want him to know what is in my heart. It is not as good as he thought. I’m just an ordinary man. When I love someone, I would love to the fullest. That’s my mistake. When the person I love is sad, I will also feel like crying and when he’s happy, I feel happy. That’s my weakness.

“You should think about it carefully, Jinyoung. I don’t even know what to say anymore.”

“I know your intentions, Jackson. Thank you. I just need you to listen to my entire problem. I don’t know whom I should tell.”

“Did you want me to kill that woman?” Jackson asked in a serious tone. If I didn't know him better, I would think he was serious.

“Jackson!” I playfully smacked him. Then we laughed.

“Thank you Jackson.” I hugged Jackson. I immediately wipe a tear that is flowing.