Poems

Falling

I never thought I would come to this

Maybe if I just shut myself away

Make it clear to everybody

I don't want to fall in love

My heart's been bruised and stolen

Now it's gone

Don't know where I went wrong

Mom keeps looking at me blankly

Dad barely even hears me cry

I'll only cry at night

I feel like no one knows

No one's going to understand

The kind of power she has over me

It's not something I want

Harmless flirting and now it all comes back

But not back to who i want 

Tried to block it out

Make it stop

Forget everything and get stoned each day

Pop some pills and just forget the pain

But it's not working anymore

My sunglasses hide the pain in my eyes

My hat covers up my messy hair

I haven't slept 

I stopped eating

Weeks ago

Nothing feels the same

Christmas is so close

But right now all i want is to hold her close

People keep asking me what i want

All i can tell them is 

Give me time

I don't know yet

Falling in love

Is like falling on your face

Shit gets fucked up

And everyone loses their place

My head is a mess

My heart's out of place

My lungs don't work the same

Drugs aren't helping

Neither are the girls

Flirting only reminds me of her more

So I'm fucking screwed

I'll cry all-day

But she'll never come back to me

-Maybe I should just let you go

I'm finding it hard to just let her go

Hopelessly falling

I know she'll probably see this

But what's the point i'm to high to care

maybe something will happen

Maybe something will go right for once

I'll just go pray to every higher being

Pray for someone to save me now

I can't be falling for her