As tears slide down my face
Memories of you come flooding back
Washing over me
Like a tidal wave
My childhood best friend
Disappeared without a trace
Didn't get to say goodbye
Walk down memory lane
The day we met
The night we laughed so hard we cried
Tears slide away from me
My emotions get the best of me
I can't replace you
I can't turn around and forget you
You're the first one I came out too
And I know you're gone
But you don't know
How much you helped
Made my pain vanish for a while
Made me smile
On the days I knew i would cry
Can't bring myself to find you
Can't stop from wanting
To hug you one last time
Say I'm sorry for leaving you behind
Say how much I want you around
How many memories come back
We used to argue over dumb things
Who stole whose eraser
Who was right
Who won the game
But now all I want to say
Bottled in and held in me
You wouldn't recognize me
I've changed so much
And yet I'm still the same girl
The same one you met in 2nd grade
The shy girl
Sitting in the back
Getting lost in herself
Wishing for someone
To notice her
To look at her like she looks at the stars
To smile at her like she smiles at the moon
To explore her mind
Like she explores the night
But they never came
No one to be that for her
Middle-school passed her by
9th grade got the best of her
Now she's wishing she had her friend
Her childhood best friend
She didn't make her feel so alone
Didn't leave her
Like everyone else did
Until that day
Summer of 7th grade
Thought we'd have forever
But now forever is gone
I didn't say goodbye
I couldn't bring myself to let her go
And she left
Days and nights filled with regret
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So this is actually about two people. One I met in middle school and one I met when in 2nd grade. Ari was basically my sister. Heather could've been more than my friend, but then..well what happened between us is personal and it hurts too much to talk about. Ari and Heather affected me more than they thought they did. Never saying goodbye to either of them hurts even though i still talk to lollipop sometimes. you just know somethings different. Like we ended things for a reason and frankly i'm questioning why she decided to come back, but ig one old best-friend is better than no old best friends and being alone right?
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