I want to travel. I want to do things. And I hate small spaces. I hate being in one place for too long. Being stuck at home is torture. I die inside every time I wake up. Because I'm home. Not outside, not sitting in the middle of the woods looking at clouds. I'm not stargazing, I'm not losing myself in a new city. I'm home. Where everything and everyone is familiar and it's suffocating. I feel trapped, lonely and bored. But mostly I feel cold. It's summer in Texas. To me it feels like winter. But not Texas winter, I mean real winter. Below zero winter with 6 foot snow. That type of cold. Always. Even when it's 100 degrees outside. I'm cold. I can't stand to be in this house, trapped in the same place. I feel myself rotting away. Little by little everything that once had meaning is slipping away, and I can't stop the emptiness I feel inside. I can't help but cry myself to sleep. Wouldn't you if you felt like you were in a cage?
You can say I'm being dramatic, but whatever. It's who I am. If I can't go live my life to the fullest, then why even bother to get out of bed.
No party, no explore the woods, nothing. No one to have fun with.
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Poetry"But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell. I know right now, you can't tell. But stay a while and maybe you'll see a different side of me" - Matchbox 20 Poems are my way of freedom, to express myself, and all of them are here in one place, most...
