"But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell. I know right now, you can't tell. But stay a while and maybe you'll see a different side of me"
- Matchbox 20
Poems are my way of freedom, to express myself, and all of them are here in one place, most...
Unrequited love- One-sided love, you love someone and they don't love you
As anyone who knows me or has ever read a few of my poems knows, I'm in way too deep. And I've known her for about 4 maybe 5 years. It's on and off and it kills me. My friends think I'm over her, that I'm writing about someone else, or no one in particular. But everything I write, every time i get the urge to write, it becomes about love. About her. I don't know what to do anymore. 3 years ago I told her I liked her but she had a boyfriend, so of course she forgot about it and nothing happened. She used to like me back but she didn't want to cheat on him, so she said she'd give us a shot when things ended with him. Turns out they lasted 3 years, and we started fighting a lot. So much to the point that one day she left. She said she was "done". And now it's been months since then but she came back. Whenever I ask why she avoids it. She closes herself off and returns to being cold until i change the subject. Tonight I don't even know with her. We were talking about the creation of the universe and I forgot she is Christian whereas I am a Wiccan, she knows I have different beliefs than she does, and things were going good, until i said "whoever or what ever made us". She then proceeded to say "I believe God made us." And me being me, I didn't argue or try to say she was wrong, I apologized like a normal person and said i forgot about religion because in honestly I really did forget. Usually she just says its fine and continues the conversation. Now she's ignoring me and everything in me is torn between apologizing more for offending her on accident or just leaving her alone. I've been in love with her for 4-ish years and after finally fixing things with her, we go back to square one.
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Anywho, let me sort out some confusion because dumbshits who know me are tryna get me killed...again... The girl I'm talking about is NOT a person I see weekly I won't say who it's not but I can say who it it. For those who know me. Her name is Abby. NOT her. Okay. I'm so fucking tired of everyone tryna start shit between me and some girl i haven't seen in a year. Fuck you, yes you. You know who you are thank you for making my quarantined days hell.
