Queen oneshots

He smells so sweet : Mixed

brian was resting against the wall of his boyfriends bedroom, they where on a two week holiday from school and had nothing much to do. john was sat opposite the bed from brian and writing something in a black note pad.

brian set the book he was reading down and looked at john who was still busy writing. brian cleared his throat in an attempt to gain johns attention but alas, he kept writing.
brian let out a loud sigh and cleared his throat with more emphasis than before- finally gaining johns attention.

"yes?" the younger boy asked setting his pen down.

"i'm bored." brian sighed.

"are you?" john smiled, raising his eyebrows.

"yes. and you aren't helping- entertain me."

"what would you like me to do?" john grinned leaning forwards.

"hmm, kiss me?" brian smiled.

john hummed in agreement before kissing brian, the older boy was about to deepen the kiss when john pulled away and got back to writing in his note pad. brian was taken aback and looked at his boyfriend in confusion, and he wrote- his cheeks had turned pink.

what was he writing in that stupid book anyway?

brian thought, it wasn't like john to write this much- or really at all.
"deaks?"

"mmhm?" john said looking up.

"what are you writing?"

john blushed again and pulled the book a little closer into him, "homework- um- biology."
he stammered nervously.

"i thought you didn't do biology?" brian furrowed his brow.

"no, no, i do. i sit next to um.. r-roger." he gulped before smiling nervously.

"oh.. right." brian said allowing john to go back to his writing.

he tried to read his book but couldn't keep his mind off of what was in that note pad- he let his curiosity get the best of him and snatched the book from johns hands before he could react.

"no! brian please give it back! don't read it- please!" john yelled desperately scrambling to get the notepad back.

brian held him back with a triumphant smile, "why? what could be so bad?" he laughed and began to read out loud.

"he smells so sweet, like fresh picked daisies, his hands- how they move, it drives me crazy. i love his laugh, his smile- everything above." he paused, "john, is this about me?" he smiled before continuing, "the way that his hair blows in the wind, casting... golden.. rays. his.. bright... blue.. eyes- i could look into them for.. days.."
brian felt tears prick at his eyes as his looked up from the paper in front of him at john, who had his head hung down.

"j-john?" he sniffed.

but his boyfriend kept his head low.

"john!" he snapped, "look at me!"

john looked up shakily, his cheeks stained with tears.

"i- who.. who is this about?" brian whispered.

john stayed silent.

"who is this about?! because it sure isn't about me, no! no, it's not me with my golden hair and blue eyes- so tell me, who is this about?!" he shouted.

"brian- i.." john began.

"tell me." the older boy said sternly.

"you know!" john cried.

"say it!" brian shouted, "i want to hear it from you!"

"you know!" john sobbed.

"fucking hell john! say it!"

"roger! it's about roger!" the brunette shouted.

brian sat quiet, he knew it was about one of their closest friends- the only one with blond hair and blue eyes, it was the only option. but he couldn't believe it, john had actually said it.

"brian- please." john whimpered.

"no."

"i can explain-"

"explain what? how your in love with someone else?" brian cried, "i- i have to go." he said standing up and rushing out of the room.

john cried for him to stay but he had left the house before he could let the younger boy convince him to do so.

john sat up in his room hot tears rolling down his cheeks- what was he going to do? he counts help it, he loves brian, but roger was different. he shakily got up off the floor and over to his phone where he dialled a familiar number.

"hello? rog? can you come over- yeah, please. okay... okay.. i'll see you in a bit." he sniffed.

he hates himself, for hurting brian, for loving roger. but how could he control it- he wasn't a cheater, he never cheated. he would had have to end it with brian soon anyway, because every time they kissed john couldn't help but imagine it was roger he was kissing instead of brian.

john let the sobs overtake his body- he deserved it, he lay on the floor crying his heart out for brian, he wanted to take all brian's pain for himself.

"john? john? are you okay?" a voice called through the house and into johns room.
"oh, john." roger sighed sitting next to john and taking him into his arms.

he shushed and soothed john until the crying had subsided, and he sat up to look at the blond.
"i'm terrible. i'm horrible." he cried.

"what are you talking about? no your not."

"yes. i am. i'm meant to be with brian, but i love someone else! i love you." john buried his head in his knees.

"you- you love me?" roger gasped.

"yes. yes i love you, and i hate it!" john started to cry again.

"come here." roger said calmly taking john in for a hug. "you are not a horrible person, okay? you are just a person."

john only shook his head into roger, as he let more tears fall.
"hey! hey, look at me." roger said bring up johns chin.

"you are not a horrible person, you are amazing, and smart, and funny, and beautiful."

"you think i'm beautiful?" john said looking up at roger with glassy grey eyes.

"yes. and i hate it, because you are meant to be with brian. and i shouldn't feel like this." the blond sighed.

"feel like what?" john sniffed wiping his cheeks.

"like i'm in love with you."

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sorry i did another dealor oops. lol i cba to write more sooo, also this is based of a tiktok but idc 😎
hope you liked sorry i've been a little um not here :/
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