When 30-year-old Golda learns she only has a year to live due to cancer, she decides to relive her youth by going back to high school by bribing the principal. But as she attends classes disguised as a teenager, she finds that the students she meets...
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No one truly care not until you're gone
/3/ The Girl Who Wants to Die
[LULU]
THEY say that when you just died that's the only time when people will genuinely care for you. For a moment they will stop what they're currently doing just to give a fuck that you just died. And then when they're done grieving, they will continue to live on, some are stuck, some are unable to move on.
There are plenty of reasons why I find dying fascinating.
It wasn't surprising that they found me odd and weird, even lunatic. But hey, nobody still bothered to listen.
I found the perfect day and perfect moment to end it all. 'On the First Day of School, Student Committed Suicide',it sounds silly and horrible title of an article but I found it amusing. I already searched numerous ways how to take my own life but I chose to jump in our school building.
Nakikinikinita ko na ang magiging reaksyon ng admins ng school, ang mga kaklase ko? They won't probably care. Baka nga matuwa pa sila na patay na ako.
But that perfect one was ruined by that woman.
Heto, kailangan ko ulit maghanap ng tama at magandang pagkakataon para pagkamatay.
"Lulu, honey, are you sure hindi mo na kailangan ng kasama sa bahay? I can always call your cousin to stay with you," my mom said while holding her travel bag.
"Oo nga, Lulu, hindi ka ba mabo-bored dito mag-isa? Hindi pa namin sure ng mommy mo kung kailan matatapos ang business trip namin sa Singapore," sinundan 'yon ni dad.
"I'll be fine," pilit akong ngumiti sa kanila.
"Well, third day pa lang naman ng school. I'm sure you can still chill habang wala kami," hinawakan ako ni mom sa balikat. "We'll go ahead, honey."
"Bye, Lulu," humalik si dad sa pisngi ko at si mom naman ay yumakap saglit.
I waved at them and when they disappeared from my sight, my smile vanished. Well, I'm home alone—again. I'm an only child, my parents provided me everything I needed, and our home is fine too. They're just too busy to check me out and I think it's fine, okay naman akong mag-isa.
Now, time to go to school.
"Hep! Hep! Nasaan ang ID mo, Miss?" harang sa'kin ng guard atsaka ko lang napagtanto na wala pala 'yung ID sa lace ko. Tiningnan ko lang siya at napakunot ito. "Sa guidance ka na lang magpaliwanag."
Early morning pinapunta ako sa Guidance Office. I said that I lost my ID kaya wala silang nagawa kundi papuntahin na ako sa homeroom ko.
When I entered the room, I felt all their gazes to me. Then there's the murmurs and the secret insults. I didn't mind them. Umupo ako sa pwesto ko at nilabas ang notebook ko.
