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Permanent Vacation

Sheldon

I saw Calum and Daniel snuggling for the second time in about 72 hours. I'd say things were getting pretty serious between them. I was about to tell Lennon but then I remembered that I wasn't thrilled with her.

I was upset that I wasn't thrilled with her. I had no ownership of Ashton and I clearly had made the steps to move forward but still I felt a bit betrayed. I didn't want to feel betrayed though. I wanted to feel happy for them.

I sighed and just went back to my bunk. I felt massively alone so I texted Harry and also William.

I miss you ❤️

Within 10 minutes they had both responded with something along the lines of:

can't wait to see you

I sighed before rolling onto my back and staring blankly at the ceiling. I knew I had to break it off with one of them, and I knew I wasn't happy with William. I had started shaking my leg while I thought. The only reason I noticed was because Luke opened my curtain and put his hands on his hip.

"You're shaking the whole unit." He looked half dead. I apologized before stopping him again.

"If you loved two people at the same time how would you go about with choosing one?" I asked, "And how do you tell the other that you're trying to move on?" I added on before he could answer.

"Well, I think Ashton knows you're moving on." He chuckled before getting back in his bunk beneath mine. I leaned down to look at him.

"It's not Ashton." I frowned, "And I'm serious. This is a big problem for me." He shook his head.

"I dunno, just be honest? I mean what's the worst that could happen?" He asked before rolling over to signify that we were done talking.

To answer his question the worst that could happen is that all my stuff gets thrown out or given to random women, and I have some stuff that I care about a lot at William's house.

When are you coming home?

Because we need to talk.

It was William. I sighed. Do I tell him when the tour is over? Do I ignore him? Even worse- do I lie and say we added more dates and let him think that I'm still working after the tour is really over. I put my phone down and turned it on silent before rolling over. I needed a nap.

When I woke up the bus was empty and parked next to a really big house. At first I was offended no one woke me up but then I looked at my phone and saw the copious amounts of calls and texts from literally everyone.

Helen texted me my room information, Ashton wanted to know if I wanted to get dinner, Lennon asked where I was, Luke and Michael were worried about if I felt okay, cal asked if something happened between Lennon and Ashton. The only person who didn't text me was Daniel, but I knew I would be able to talk to him after reading my room info. I was rooming with him tonight.

I got off the bus and into the chilly night. I desperately wished I still smoked, at least that could keep me warm while I hiked the parking lot up to the hotel. It was a little more rural of an area than I wanted it to be. By the time I had gotten to the door it has started raining and I was all wet and cold and alone stuck outside a really creepy house.