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Youre Not Stubborn

Ashton

The last show was bittersweet. It was nice to have a semi-regular show to close out a completely irregular tour but it felt strange until Lennon joined us on stage. Once she was singing her songs that we learned so fast and the crowd was happier with her playing it went so well. It made me sad that we were done now. And it made me more sad that she wasn't coming with us on our next headline.

I had heard her talking to Daniel about him being her new manager and he was thrilled so maybe he can talk her into coming with us. I knew that if she didn't we would have to talk about what we were after this. I knew I wanted something long term from her but I wasn't about to fuck up her long-term plans.

I relaxed and decided to just enjoy the show and not worry about it until later. I knew I had all night to talk to her about it. She was, after all, staying in my room tonight since Daisy just bailed.

I felt bad though, Daisy had such big plans but her client was just not up for that. It said nothing about her management skills or anything, I just don't think she anticipated Lennon not wanting to get to monumental status. I shook those thoughts from my head and jumped into my part of the banter that we do and everything else faded away.

After the show I went to my room to shower. Along the way I saw Sheldon.

"How's your eye?" She asked quietly. When she asked it occurred to me that I didn't see her before the show.

"You missed us before our last show!" I said swinging an arm around her and pulling her after me. "How dare you?" I frowned at her when she scrunched her face and ducked out from under my arm.

"I was released." She said. I didn't understand what she meant, "I got fired, Ashton." She sighed. I frowned.

"Who fired you?" I was getting mad, "Because no one has the right to fire you except-" she cut me off.

"Ashton, Relax." She said, "Helen kicked me off the tour. I'll still fix your hair when you fuck it up in your daily life." I was still unhappy.

"I guess you'll be back for our new tour?" I asked. She nodded.

"For sure, but I guess we can't all run off together like we used to." She shrugged. I nodded before remembering what Helen did to Daniel and Lennon.

"Do you have a room?" I asked. She shook her head.

"Nah, I think I'm just gonna go ahead and meet Harry." She shrugged. I shook my head.

"No, I'll ask the guys if you can bunk with one of them." She looked like she wanted to fight me on it but she checked her watch and finally agreed.

I went around door to door to find someone to let her stay with them but the only person who answered was Luke.

"Hey, Shel was dropped from the tour, can she stay with you tonight?" Luke paused and frowned. He had his eyes squinted in thought before he threw his hands in the air.

"Fuck it. Fine. Give me two minutes." I gave him a thumbs up and wondered why he needed time but shrugged it off.

We stood off to the side while he did something in his room. After about two minutes give or take a girl came scurrying out of his room. She glared at me and Sheldon before hrrmphing down the stairs. Luke came back a few seconds later and opened the door wide.

"My casa is your casa." He smiled a little and Sheldon followed him in his room.

"Thanks bro!" I said waking towards my room to finally take my shower.

After my shower I realized I had no idea where Lennon was, or if she had a key to my room. I frowned and got dressed before cracking the door open for her when she came back.

I laid down on the bed and turned on the tv. I knew I didn't want to watch anything but if there is no noise then the buzzing in my head would get out of hand. So background noise was for the best.

I don't remember going to sleep but I hadn't noticed when Lennon came in.

I immediately wrapped my arms around her and planted a kiss on her face. She sighed and we slept the rest of the night. I still had to talk to her about this.

"Len." I said gently, "hey. I think we need to talk." I fought myself so I didn't go back to sleep. She groaned at me before rolling onto her back.

"What do we have to talk about?" She asked. "I want to go to sleep." She added in a groan.

"Are you coming with us on the US tour?" I asked. She scrunched her face, "I'm just wondering if this is going to be a long distance thing or just a one time tour thing, or if you're gonna come with me." I was really concerned. I liked her a lot and I wanted to give us a shot.

"Ashton I don't know. If I go on your tour it'll be as your significant other, not as a performer." She was being stubborn about her show's aesthetic. It was admirable but was she really willing to risk her own success, or to a lesser extent relationship with me, just to keep her smaller shows?

"Are you sure? This could be huge for you." I said. She frowned.

"How many tours do I have to go one that 'could be huge for me' before I'm huge?" She asked, "everyone knows you guys are basically Titans in the industry but how many 'huge' shots did you have to take before you guys became titans?" She sat up. I was confused.

"Len, we just want to help you." I sat up and frowned at her. "We toured with One Direction twice before we were picked up by any means. You're already pretty big we just want to help spread your music around. We are all huge fans of yours." I couldn't understand why she wouldn't let us help.

"I get that. I really do, but my music is important to me. It's not just coming out with the next hit song. It's about writing what I feel and honestly I feel like anyone I would be connected with through you guys wouldn't let me do that." I realized after she said that that she wasn't being stubborn. She was passionate about her sound and didn't want anyone to change that.

I nodded. "Fair enough." I laid back down, "but you never answered me about what we are after this." She sighed and laid back down against me.

"I can't imagine that I won't be in LA pretty soon." She buried her face in my neck before smiling, "but I definitely want to be with you." That was a good enough answer for me.

I went to sleep knowing where I stood with her. Which lent itself to possibly the best sleep I've had in years.