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Treat People With Kindness

Sheldon

Ashton walked me to Luke's room and knocked. I felt bad asking him for help like this but he seemed willing, albeit reluctant, to help.

"Two minutes." He said before closing his door. After a girl left his room there was a few crashing noises and then the door opened again. He smiled and held it open for me.

Before I could thank Ashton he had gone back to his room to be with Lennon. I don't know why it made me a little jealous to see them together like that. I mean he just met her. I don't want to smash him but my best friend just turned me away for a girl he thought he was in love with.

I sighed. 'Not fair Shelly.' I could hear Ashton saying. I knew I couldn't bring that to his attention. I mean I told him I couldn't be with him, and he (finally) let me go. I needed to be happy for him. And I was happy for him but just a splash jealous of the lack of attention.

"Sorry about the mess." Luke said, pulling me out of my thoughts. I nodded absentmindedly and sat down on the horrible couch. It felt like it was just a display couch that was made of cardboard and thin cushioning.

The plus side was that it was next to the window so I could at least kill time watching the world go by.

"You can sleep on the bed, if you want. I can take the couch." Luke offered but I declined.

"It's cool. Your flight tomorrow is way worse than mine is." I fluffed a pillow that he threw to me.

"That's fair." He shrugged, "how about you take the comforter at least. I feel bad making you sleep on the shitty couch." He shrugged. I took the blanket and curled up on the as he rummaged around his messy room before picking up his pajamas.

He saluted me before going into the bathroom to, I'm assuming shower.

I felt kinda bad though. He literally gave up some fuck so I had somewhere to sleep. As I settled down in my "bed" I glanced out the window. The night life had settled down quite a bit in the last few minutes.

Before I fell asleep Luke came back from the bathroom. He sat down on the bed and sighed.

"You still awake?" He asked me. I rolled over to face him and smiled.

"Barely." I said yawning. He chuckled and shook his head.

"You wanna know something crazy?" He continued before I could respond, "I always told Ashton to get over you but I never thought he would. I really thought you two were meant to be." He laid back on the bed. I scrunched my face at him.

"Thats the thing." I said after a few minutes, "I know that Ashton is attractive and I know that he thinks I'm attractive. I know we dated for about 2 seconds before I got a job with you guys. And I know we would've been great together." I shrugged, "But it just didn't line up." He nodded.

"Right, but it could've lined up." He said, "I think you just like the chase more than the relationship." I mean I couldn't say he was wrong.

"Don't therapize me." I snapped. I knew he was right. I did like a good chase. "Just because I need some sort of excitement in my relationships doesn't make me a bad person." I grumbled. Luke chuckled.

"I'm not saying it does! You aren't a bad person. I'm just pointing out the one thing that makes you and Ashton incompatible." He said. He was enjoying this too much.

"And that is?" I asked. He shook his head.

"He likes the mundane-day-to-day-boring-old relationship." He shrugged, "He likes the conversation about where you should go to dinner this time. He likes the 59th date to the same coffee shop." I frowned. I had never thought about it like that. "You always hid behind your personal morals but it was because you knew you would get bored." He really was shockingly observant.

I had no idea what to say in response. So I didn't. I just shrugged and rolled back toward the window to watch the people a few hundred feet down.

The next morning when we were about to leave Luke grabbed my arm.

"I hope I didn't overstep last night." He said sincerely. I shrugged.

"No, it's no big. Nothing I haven't heard before." I was lying to him. His words shook me to my core. I hadn't realized that about myself but it all makes sense. Why else would I have fucked Harry while still with William? With William I had reached that mundane relationship that Luke mentioned.

Now my relationship with Harry was shiny and new and exciting but would it become boring and mundane too?

On the drive over to the airport Lennon sat in Ashton's lap. I wondered if I fucked myself over. Did I have feelings for Ashton? I looked at my phone and saw the picture of me and Harry that I had put as my lock screen and sighed. I definitely had feelings for Harry.

Maybe I'm polyamorous. I chuckled to myself and shook my head lightly. No just indecisive.

I wanted it all but I knew I couldn't have it all.

At the airport we had to part with Lennon and Daniel before they had to part with me. We all said our goodbyes to them. I definitely kissed them both on the face. They had become good friends through this strange 2 weeks.

"Call me if you come to LA." I said to them both. "Free haircuts for life." Daniel ran a hand through his scraggly hair and laughed while Lennon's eyes grew wide in fear.

"First call." Daniel said giving me another hug. I turned away and saw Calum thinking hard. I wanted him to kiss Daniel goodbye but I doubted he would. It was hard enough to be in the world's line of sight all the time but even worse was hiding a big secret and not being able to act like yourself.

I turned away towards the guys. They were starting to walk on towards their terminal. We called after him a few times before we just moved on. He would follow eventually.

And he did. I didn't notice he was back with us until we got to my terminal. They all crowded me in a big hug.

"Have fun, Shelly!" Ashton said happily.

"Don't get bored." Luke added nudging me. I rolled my eyes at both of them before trying to weasel my way out of the huddle of massive men around me. They all just grabbed tighter so I succumbed.

It was a nice goodbye to a mildly horrible tour.

I hated flying but instead of dread I felt excitement. I would only be on the plane for a few hours so I knew I could look past it. I hoped Harry was as excited to see me as I was to see him.

I started thinking about what Luke said again. I made myself a promise to hold on to this excitement. I wouldn't let myself get bored. No matter what. I wouldn't let myself fall in like with Ashton again. Even if him and Lennon didn't work out.

I couldn't fuck it up with Harry again.