trying not to fall in love

Chapter 8

When I woke up.. I was in my underwear and bra, and I turn to my side to see niall he was shirtless... I take the covers off and he was only in his boxers, o-m-g
Did we... we couldn't have...
I try to trigger my brain... what the hell happend last night all I remember is strobe lights, Instagram and water...
Uff I get out of bed .. and see my dress on the floor ..
I wore a dress... but it's not on me.
Niall wakes up and I drop to the floor. and he gets put of bed and looks in the bathroom.. and then he walks over to were I dropped and trips
"Fuck... my foot shit .." he looks over to me "payton..."
i fake smile "h...ey"
"Wat are you doing"
"I was looking for my shoe." I say
"Ohh.. we'll get dressed we gotta go"
Nothing seems to trigger my head as too hat happen..
"Niall"
"Yes"
"What did we do"
"We went to the club and to the beach then came here and crashed"
"Oh okay"

Me and niall put on our clothing's and I did my hair real quick putting it into a messy bun.
Then niall held my hand as we walked out of the hotel together. we took the elevator and when we saw what the lobby looked like I dropped his hand and honestly got a little mad. cause there must have been 350 girls in that lobby for niall. they all screamed niall
And he looks at me mouthing sorry..
And next thing I know is paparazzi is takin pictures and asking stupid questions like
-niall is this your girlfriend-
-do u like her-
-is she a fan-
-how would your other girlfriend react to this-
-how would your fans... take this-
-why do you hate your fans-
-mrs what's your name-
"Don't answer them it only creates drama" niall says as he guides me out the door..
When we get to the limo
I don't dare look or say a word to him..
After what I heard the paparazzi say
//how would your girlfriend feel about this\\
.. I can't believe I just got played again
"Payton are you gonna talk to me"
I didn't answer
"Payton... the paparazzi are stupid.. I don't have a girlfriend"
".... Niall just shut up" I si-mi yell
"No because.... I don't have a gf and everything I told you was real..fuck I really like you"
i don't answer because I'm afraid I will burst into tears if I say something else
"Payton talk to me"
"Payton .... please"
" I'm Trying here too let you know"
"Why are you mad then"
"Payton" he says once more and he turns me to make me face him
"Talk to me.. why are you mad"
I close my eyes and open them back up
"Niall....I don't want to get hurt I've been hurt pretty bad before.. I've been beaten by my one of my old boyfriends.. I've Been bullied I've lost the greasiest thing in the world that has every happened to me, i have been throughout hell and back with boys. I've been tossed around like a salad...
I've never had the bestiest friends
They've always turned my words around.... and told my deepest secrets. I've lost everything.. in the world my sister moved she is my he but... My mom gave her up cause my sister was deeply depressed.... words really do hurt they shouldn't hurt but they do.. pain isn't just a feeling anymore. and I hate it pain is kickin my butt when I should be kicking it's. my grandma is the only thing I have left and the doctor told me that she has 3 moths to live.. she hasn't old me herself but the doctor told me. behind her back. Soo I can be prepared to loose.. the one I have left"
I break into tears...
and niall holds me

"I will never lay a hand on your pretty little face, and I will never leave you."

"Promise"

"I promise"

he kisses me Briefly