| Fillie ~ Oneshots |

~Why~

So this is kinda angst but youll just see. Oh and this is inspired by the song "Why" by Bazzi. (you should listen to it while reading lol its pretty good ^^)
(Random names used)

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(Millie's POV)

Finn. My first boyfriend. The guy who masked his cheating self with fake innocence. Wow, he really ruined everything for me. I had been dating him for two years and a half and let me just say, the beginning of that, were the best times of my life. I felt like i was on top of the world, and that every other boyfriend was bowing down to mine because of how great he was. Until about five months ago, when we broke up. The reasoning for this is because one night, (it was actually a night we were planning on seeing each other), I went to his house and when I walked into his room, let's just say the sight was scarring.

So I broke up with him right on the spot, and left his house as a crying mess. When I got home I sat in my room, sobbing and when my parents asked me what happened, I told them the truth. The complete and utter truth. Back to present time, they hate his guts. And the problem is, I don't hate him. I'm still in love with him. Hopelessly in love with that son of a bitch.

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I walked through the sea of high school students with an emotionless face, just quickly glancing at everybody who walked through the hall. My footsteps were the only thing I was paying attention to when I looked down. Every other sound was blurred until I felt a hard bump on my shoulder. I looked up from the ground and created eye contact with somebody me, and my heart didn't want to see.

"Hey mills.." I felt my body freeze as his short whispers sent chills down my spine, all at once I felt my heart race. Finn... wow. He shouldn't be able to do that to me. And all I know is that I am still standing completely frozen in the middle of the school hallway, letting him get what he wants. "You just take it all to heart don't you millie?" Finn snickered before looking at me softly gripping my hand before walking away and releasing it slowly. How I miss his touch... Fuck. He knows entirely what he does to me. He knows what he's capable of and he uses the power as much as he can.

I gulped hard, trying to become stronger, as I watched him walk away slowly through the corner of my eye. While he was putting himself on display as if he was bait, I cleared my throat before walking off. I rolled my honey eyes, and made it to my classroom. Once I took a short glance and made eyes with a few people in my class, I found an empty seat and sat down. Millie stop. Staying heartbroken over a cocksucker is not gonna do you good! I spoke to myself inside of my head, zoning out once again.

"Hey millie!" I heard a feminine voice call, and I turned. Finding one of the girls I hate most: Lindsey. The girl Finn cheated on me with. She knew that he was in a relationship, but she just went on. It's so fucking annoying when she tries to talk to me, acting all innocent. I just blow her off because I'm not trying to listen to her stupid bullshit.

At one point, she ended up saying- "oh don't worry, Finn said I was better in bed." And I got pissed off, I was so mad. Like why the hell does it matter who's better? Ugh, anyways. It was horrible, I almost punched her right then and there. I know i might be overreacting but she really just says shit to me over and over, everyday. And I'm just tired of it.

And no, I wasn't mad because of what she was talking about, I'm mad that she keeps talking to me and bringing Finn up. How am I ever supposed to move on with both, Finn and Lindsey right there to prevent me from fulfilling it?