Jordan's wedding two days ago was so beautiful and it was nice to get away and be able to relax and have some fun but now we had to get back to work. Well, Seth and I do. Jordan and Roman were still on their honeymoon and would be for the next two weeks so Seth and I had to pick up the slack while they're gone which we didn't mind. Besides, Jordan and Roman deserve a couple weeks to themselves. Jordan's worked nonstop for the past two years and Roman's worked longer than that so they definitely needed this time off.
I walked into the hotel room after being at the hair salon for the past two hours. I'd told Seth that I felt I needed to do something different and that's exactly what I did. Instead of just straight black hair, I now had the bottom half of it blonde and I was absolutely in love with it. As soon as I walked into the room, I smiled at Seth. He stood up and walked over before smiling at me. "What did you do?" he asked.
"Do you like it?" I asked him.
"Well, of course. You look beautiful. But what was wrong with your hair before?" he asked.
"Nothing. I just wanted a change." I said. "Besides, it's like the therapist said. I have a new start and I chose to take it. I figured, a different look would help me move past everything and learn to live my life differently."
He smiled and put his arm around my shoulders. "I'm proud of you. You know that?" he asked. "After everything you've been through, you still find a way to amaze me with your strength."
"So does that mean you approve?" I asked him with a smile.
He chuckled. "Babe, you don't need my approval. If it makes you feel good, then it's just fine with me. Just please don't ever shave your head."
"Do I look like Britney Spears to you?" I chuckled. I took my jacket off and tossed it on the bed before turning to him. "You know I couldn't have gotten through any of it without you, right? Not one single bit." I said.
"Sure you could have. You're strong enough." he said.
I shook my head. "No. I'm not as strong as you think I am. I just didn't want you to see me struggling." I said.
"Why?" he asked as we sat down on the bed.
"Because I wanted you to think I was strong. I didn't want to look like I couldn't handle anything. But the truth is, I struggled every day. It was like my brain kept reliving it every day, over and over and over and there was times I just wanted it all to end. I wanted to stop it. But I didn't because you and Gracie needed me and you needed me to be strong so that's what I made you see." I said.
Seth put his hand on my back and looked at me. "Davina, you don't have to put on an act with me. If you are struggling I wanna know so I can help you." he said. "Look, no matter what, I'm always gonna see you as the strongest woman I know. That's never gonna change. Okay? I mean, hell, you gave birth to our daughter with no pain medication. That's about as tough as it gets. And you always come out of every problem you have stronger than before. You've survived a lot and that says a lot. You don't ever have to worry about the way I look at you. I love you. And I look at you and I see my life. I see the only woman I've ever loved this much and I see the best mother in the world. And I know that's what Gracie sees too."
"Thanks." I said. "I don't know what I would do without you. I love you so much Seth."
"I love you too." he said. He pressed his lips to mine before standing up and holding his hand out. "Come on. We gotta get to the arena."
I took his hand and followed him out of the hotel room with our bags on our shoulders. I couldn't wait for tonight. It would be the first night we'd be covering the absence of Jordan and Roman. But Seth and I would have a segment to do anyway and Seth had a match to participate in. I guess we'll see just how well this all plays out.
