Our vacation was much needed and I'm glad we did it but now we had to return our routines and I had to deal with the truth. The truth of Roman and I. I had to tell Seth, my husband, that I had cheated on him with his best friend while Seth wasn't himself. And I had to tell him before I went crazy because I could not keep it in any longer.
We walked into the hotel room and dropped our bags by the bed before I sat down. Seth plopped down on the bed with the remote. Since we had the next couple days off still, he wanted to do a lot of relaxing. Sorry Seth. I don't think that's gonna be possible. I took a deep breath and looked at Seth from my place on the ottoman against the wall. I just needed to get this out. I was terrified of how he was gonna react. But this needed to come out. He needed to know exactly what happened. I felt a tear roll down my cheek as I let out the breath I'd been holding in. "Seth." I said catching his attention.
"What's up babe?" he asked casually.
"We need to talk." I told him. Well no going back now. He looked at me and turned the TV off. "Before I tell you what I need to say, I need you to know that I love you and that's never gonna change no matter what."
"Davina?" he asked cautiously.
"And I need you to know that what I'm about to tell you, happened in one of my darkest moments." I said as another tear rolled down my cheek.
"Babe you're scaring me." he said. "What's going on?"
I took another deep breath and let another tear fall. "I lied to you." I said.
"What do you mean you lied? About what?" he asked.
"About Roman." I said. I could see him stiffen as I said this and this time he didn't say anything so I needed to hurry up and explain myself. "The night I almost took those pills to end it all, Roman did save me from that. He comforted me. Stayed with me until I fell asleep. But before I did, I was so emotional. I was all over the place. I didn't know what I was doing anymore. I didn't know anything other than the fact that my heart was shattering. And in that moment, I looked at Roman and I saw you. I don't know why. Maybe I was trying to look for you. And I kissed him."
Seth let out a breath and stood up. "You kissed my best friend?" he asked.
"Seth, I am so sorry. Okay? I wish I could take it back. I would do anything to take it back. You have to believe me." I cried.
"Believe you?" he asked as he turned to me with pure disbelief written on his face. "You lied to me about kissing my best friend and you want me to believe you? How do I know you're not leaving something else out? Like maybe the idea that you too hooked up?"
"No." I said as I shook my head. "No. Seth, we didn't. It was just a kiss. That was it. I wanted to tell you when you asked......."
"Then why didn't you?" he yelled. "You know, I get it. You didn't have me so you turned to him. It makes wonder what's gonna happen when you retire and go home. Are you gonna cheat on me some more?"
I was caught off guard a little bit. "I can't believe you just said that." I said.
"Hurts doesn't it? When the one person you love the most does something you never thought they'd do?" he asked.
"I didn't expect you to be happy about this. But I didn't think you'd get nasty." I said.
"You're unbelievable." he said. "I'm the one that loses their memory for an entire year and you're acting like the victim."
I stood up and looked at him. "And if you hadn't pushed me out of the way of that car, then it would have been me and that kiss wouldn't have happened." I shouted.
