When I overwhelm myself I can't do anything and I make myself lay on the floor...I make myself remember everything I've done to myself and my reasons for it...I remind myself that no one cared...no one saw...no one knew...no one was there...I remind myself of the ways people see me...how I don't deserve anything 'good' in my life because I haven't done anything to deserve it...I remind myself why I shouldn't speak...why I shouldn't show the real me...people will be scared...they'd be disappointed...they'd hate me...they'd wish they never met me...they still won't see what I'm showing them they won't understand...they'll leave me...maybe it's better that way...if I'm alone I can't hurt anyone...if I'm gone I won't be doing anything wrong...
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Thoughts in my head
Short StoryI will be having this book as a rant to get my thoughts out of my mind for once they could stay somewhere else... Might talk in third person or use a different name sometimes.
