God fucking damit I hate emotions. They're so confusing and conflicting and too unpredictable. One second I want to punch a wall the next I want to cry. Just full on sob.
Love.
Holy fuck let me choke the word love until it stops breathing. The hate yet appreciation I have towards this word and emotion-
I love her. I love her so much. She's amazing and I'd do anything just to hug her and never let her go.
Love leads to so many different emotions though and emotions suck ass. Too much of one emotion makes me want nothing to do with any emotion. I'm such a coward and failure. I'm a quiter and at the worst possible times.
Gosh one second I'm like an invisible flame and trying to warn others that they're getting too close and the next I'm a full on puddle. The only way you can touch a puddle is by poking at it or stepping on it. I hate being a puddle.
How do I tell her I'm a puddle? How do I tell her that I really just wanna be picked up in a bucket and either evaporated or taken somewhere it's safe to be a puddle. This fucking puddle reference sucks but makes me wanna laugh at how pathetic it sounds.
Yeah, I hate me too. Don't worry.
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Thoughts in my head
Cerita PendekI will be having this book as a rant to get my thoughts out of my mind for once they could stay somewhere else... Might talk in third person or use a different name sometimes.
