Thoughts in my head

I just...

I hate myself!

I want to have a family of my own when I get older.

I want to actually hold a child in my arms and call it my own.

I want this...

I want a future! I want hope! I want to cry of joy! I want to be happy!

I need this in my life...I just I need something to care for even if someone isn't caring for me.

I need to have a reason...I have plenty but I want- I need one that I can feel...it's right there...

I want and need things to work out...

I don't know if I can handle another goodbye...not now...

I can't have good things happen to me just for them to be taken away...

I need to do something...I just...don't know how...

I wanna be in a caring and loving environment...I can give one...I know I can...

I can do so much...I just I need someone to do it for...

I could be the love and light someone sees...I've been told I am and that means the world to me.

I can do a lot but not always on my own...