I've been spacing out way too much lately. When I space out it's not some random happy daydream or creative thought....it myself actually getting out of my calm smiling body and picturing myself breaking down into pieces. I'm rocking back and forth hyperventilating and pulling at my hair. My eyes are red and there's hot burning tears running down my face. I'll randomly stop my mind process to do this. I'll randomly just thinking about myself laying in a pool of my own blood and the thoughts....the images...they hurt so much and I want to break down but I can't because those images and thoughts can't turn into my reality for so many reasons.....
There's constant wars in my head and they hurt. They hurt so much. I have people who want to help me and protect me and my heart but I can't...I just want it to be over without it bringing me or anyone else down with it! I just want it to stop! Please just make it stop....
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Thoughts in my head
Short StoryI will be having this book as a rant to get my thoughts out of my mind for once they could stay somewhere else... Might talk in third person or use a different name sometimes.
