We Will Go Down In History (Remus X OC)

Chapter 35

Part 2
Disclaimer
There are mentions of sexual topics and nudity in this chapter.

I breathed in slowly as I begun to take my clothes off, I couldn't believe I was doing this.
A part of me was really excited and wanted to join her without hesitation but another part of me believed I shouldn't.

My thoughts were fighting with each other as I walked closer to the bathtub.

I stared at her, she was fully submerged under water leaving only her head above. Her eyes were shut closed.

I lowered myself into the water wondering if I should be feeling guilty for taking advantage of this situation.

"can I open my eyes yet?" her sudden voice pulled me out of thought,

"yes," I mumbled in embarrassment,

The second she opened her eyes I plugged my fully into the water to afraid of her to stare at me and my scars across my entire body. I hadn't thought of that, not until now. What was she going to say once she saw how fucked up I was.

I could feel myself slowly needing to breathe and after awhile I was forced to come back up for air.

"I didn't know whether I should wait or if you were trying to drown yourself," Viel spoke once I had finally caught my breath, I sat there in silence unsure of what to say, afraid of what she was thinking.

"is it the act of embarrassement or fear that's stopping you from speaking?"

"what?"

"Remus, you always hide your scars, clearly having them all out in the open is bothering you,"

"don't they bother you?"

"No,"

My eyes widen, "not even a little?"

"nope,"

"doesn't it scare you? Aren't you asking yourself a thousand questions,"

"just one,"

"one ? You're only asking yourself one question?"

She nodded, "you want to know what it is?"

"kind of,"

"Why is it, everyone but yourself can see how wonderful you are,"

I scoffed, "you need a dictionary,"

"Why, you don't believe me? What makes you believe so deeply that you're horrible,"

"look at me, look at how I treated you at the Christmas party, I'm scarred, cruel and vicious,"

"that's not true, sure what you did was a bit cruel but that doesn't make you a cruel person, it's not because some gives you advice that it makes them a teacher,"

I sighed as I turned away from her gaze, "I'm a werewolf Viel," the second I said it I regretted it, now was not the time, this was cruel, she couldn't escape from me, she was vulnerable.

"That's fine,"

I turned myself towards her once again, "that's it? No fear, no disgust, no hate, no anger, no confusion?"

"how could I?"

"Did you hear me? Did you follow the defence against dark arts class? You are aware of what I am!"

"Well aware, Remus, do you know why I had to move in with my grandmother?"

"not really,"

"I never knew who my real parents were, McGonagall's daughter desperately wanted a daughter of her own. After her husband left her, she adopted me. I lived with her and her son, my brother, do you know what happened to them?"

"no,"

"my brother committed suicide because he was a werewolf,"

I thought my lungs had stopped working, "what?"

"I never told anyone because I blamed myself,"

"it was in no way your fault," I tried to rassure her,

"maybe but it was hard to convince myself at the time. Remus I can't ever fear you, hate you or be scared of you because it isn't fair. If anything you should fear me, you should be scared of me. You'll never feel safe and accepted because of the laws and rules that go against you, you should hate me. "

" how could I? You weren't the one that did it? "

" just like you aren't the one hurting others, "

I slightly chuckled " have i ever told you how smart you are? "

"only a thousand times, " she smiled back, "you want to know something?" she arched herseld towards me, "I lied, I actually have a second question,"

"what is it?" I asked curious to know,

"if I asked Remus, do you think he'd let me touch them?"

"what!?" my face immediately went red, "my scars!?"

She nodded, "would you?" she tilted her head sideways waiting for me to answer,

I turned my face away from hers as she closed the distance between us, "sure," I stuttered,

All the nerves from before came rushing back as her bare skin was inches away from mine. She slowly raised her hand out off the water and gently placed one finger on a scar on my chest.

I flinched at the unfamiliar contact, her eyes quickly traced over my expression to see if she should stop. But I lightly nodded, telling her it was okay.

She placed a second finger on my skin and trailed down my chest following my scar. I closed my eyes shut, I couldn't help but feel anxious and embarrassed.

After awhile she pulled her hand off of my chest, suddenly I felt her warm fingers slowly hesitate to touch my face. I openned my eyes and met her gaze.

She was only inches away from my face, I could hear her breathing. As we relaxed into each other's gaze she placed her hand on my cheek.

She had seemed so confident up until now, but as she stood right in front of me I could see the nervousness on her face and I could hear the embarrassement in her breathing.

Somehow knowing she felt the same way I did, it made me more confident.

We sat there, as still as we could possibly be. Silence filled the room, even the water had froze.
Quickly she placed her hand that had been resting on my cheek behind my head.

She pulled me forward and placed her lips on mine. As she did I moved closer placing one of my hands on her cheek.

That this point she pressed her chest against mine and in the act of the moment I pulled away.

My face was red and I only made things worse when I looked down at her. I submerged myself in the water, covering myseld completely hoping the warm water would absorbed my stupidity.

Once I finally raised my head out of the water I looked around searching for Viel who had disappeared.

"over here," she called out,

I looked towards where I had heard her speak. She was out of the bathtub, dressed.

"I'm sorry," I whined like a beaten puppy, I felt horrible,

"it's alright, I should be the one saying sorry really, I went to far,"

"I did enjoy it," I mumbled but she heard me,

Her face rapidly went pink, "what exactly?"

"the kiss," I shyly admitted,

"and the staring,"

"what no, I swear I didn't, it was an accident,"

"forget about it, just lock the door when you leave and give lily her key,"